Wobbly

First off, I apologize for the choppy post.  It’s past midnight and I took a sleeping pill since I need to wake up early tomorrow.

I got some much needed guidance from Jen today.  I actually felt the blocks in my heart clear and get the energy flowing again.

Turns out, my dream about D was important.  Jen said that even my TF’s kids were part of my soul group, and by him “paying his respects” — gosh, I need to change that phrase because that makes me sound like I’m dead — okay, “courtesy call” then, it was an acknowledgement that I was welcome in our soul group.  And, of course, it had to be D, who is a mama’s boy and is naturally opposed to my presence.

Basically, they’re still together, no emotional connection, but more like brother and sister.  However, between this Equinox and this — I forgot the term because really, since we only have two seasons where I live, all the changing seasons thing is actually irrelevant to my existence.  It’s just either sunny or raining. Anyway, whatever it was, it’s going to happen on May 1 — which, to me, is simply Labor Day. That period though — March 20 to May 1 — is set to be a big wave of awakening and recognition of the Divine Masculine of their Divine Feminine counterparts.

If I don’t stabilize in 5D, then he’s not going to “recognize” me.  Jen said I was wobbly right now, which was okay because we get that way sometimes.  I said that much of my frustration was because I was already that way BEFORE the fucking session.  In any case, all water under the bridge.  In order to stabilize in 5D, I have to be in the present, in the NOW and just continue to be thankful — be in a state of gratitude — no matter what 3D presents to me. She said that I had to take the lead because I am the Divine Feminine.  And, really, I should listen to my own readings because that’s exactly what I said also to the collective.

I did tell her about the fire in one of the malls that my TF designed.  And she said that that was an important sign as well.  Their egos are being dissolved by fire, like a phoenix rising from the ashes.  And, again, I said that too in my reading for this week which means I should listen to myself more, lol. She even told me to tell that to the collective and I said that I already did.

As regards the remaining 30% ancestral healing that needs to be done, Jen said that I didn’t need to clear anything anymore; that I had already cleared so much it was unbelievable. And of course, I told her about Linamarie, and she asked if she was a Twin Flame. I said I did see her in other TF boards but since I wasn’t active myself because I was hecka busy, I didn’t really know her.  She was just recommended and I did enjoy my first session with her, so I went for a second.

And, once again, I got advised that I need to get readings from people who vibrate higher than I do. This is the part where the eye-roll comes in. The thing is, I don’t know that until after I get the read.

And since I was pesky and needed validation, I asked her if she was sure that I didn’t need to clear anything anymore.  And she asked me what resonated with me more, her version or Linamarie’s?  I told her that I had already cut karmic cords with my family around three years ago and I was even given a promotion by the karmic board with that crown that they gave me.  And anything that I did after that was already my free will.  I could choose to leave and let them live out the consequences of not spiritually evolving, but I chose to stay.  And I felt that with my presence alone, they are improving and making better choices.

So there.  That’s that.  At least, a huge thorn has been lifted off my chest as regards that ancestral healing thing.

I told Jen that I kind of slid back into 3D mode and went into retail therapy to comfort myself and just kept buying bags.  I think my bag buying spree is over now.  I’m ready to go back to my “other Facebook”. With the exception of those bags that I didn’t quite like when it got to me, the rest are going to be part of my other line of business.

Okay, that’s it.  I need sleep.  Lots of work tomorrow.

 

Energy Tourney Levelling

In the sport of Badminton, whenever there is a tournament, there is a “levelling” session first where participants get matched with other participants with the same skill set.  This is so the game becomes even, and all participants get the most out of the game.  The same principle applies whenever you’re just playing.  In order to “level-up”, you have to play with players who are ranked on a higher level than you in order to learn from them.

Why on earth am I talking about badminton?  Well, today, I got an “Akashic Record Reading”.  Yes, in quotes. One of my subscribers messaged me on my FB business page because she wanted to get in touch with another Twin from the same country. We chatted.  She seemed okay, and then she raved about this woman who gave Akashic Record readings who identified her as a twin and whatnot. I got excited and asked for leads to get in touch with this reader and, subsequently, made an appointed — which was today.

Prior to the reading, I was nervous.  So I got my Lemurian Seed Crystal and my Divine Crystal Grid Crystal out of my pouch and activated them while in the waiting room.  I even called in my guides to keep me company — and it was my guide from Lyra — I call her Fleur — who came in.  She helped keep my nervousness at bay with her lighthearted energy.

Come to think of it, I should have been tipped off by the energy of the person who came out of the room before it was my turn. The best I would describe it — all in retrospect, of course (which I am now kicking myself in the behind for) — was exasperation.  It wasn’t elation or the kind of energy that you’d get after a good healing session. It was more of an “Hmp” instead of an “Oooohhhh”.

Anyway, my turn came promptly at 2pm.  It was supposed to be a one hour session, but a we only got to 45 mins.  And I know because I timed it. Of those 45 mins., a good chunk of it was an interview.  I didn’t really see the purpose of it.  It’s like I was the one giving her information instead of her giving me some.  Then she said that my energy was blocked in the stomach area by dark energies which were preventing my light from shining through. Seriously, I didn’t know where she was getting what she was saying since I knew/know that I’m a clear channel now.  Especially since I just had a clearing with MK prior to the new year and I had a Reiju Reiki reattunement at the first hour of the new year.

She tells me that some guides of mine have to retire because they’ve been there since I was seven. So we did an invocation and clearing so that only the guides of love and light would remain. Sounds innocuous and good, right?  The thing is, after the session, I didn’t feel right.  I didn’t even sense any energy transfer from her. I mean, heck, the crystals I handled gave off more energy than she did. Plus, it left me with a gargantuan headache near the back of my head and this wasn’t the feeling after being energetically cleared.  Far from it.

Anyway, this was the information that I got from her (all after a million leading questions):

• AA Uriel wants to work with me — (will have to check that out)
• I have from a clan of witches (mother side) who weren’t really good because they were corrupted (bribes) and used their power for the dark side — this, after I told her I have never resonated with Wicca and/or Witchcraft even though I tried it.  I’ve always resonated with High Magick.
  
• She kept asking about my grandfather, saying that he has some sort of power but didn’t tell me what
• When I asked her if I should continue my mission, she said that I should stop it all together and concentrate on my career because it was through my career that I’d get what I wanted out of life.  Now, this is as off as off can be.  In my reading with Starsoul Tarot, the message was to continue my mission while waiting for my twin.  Even in my session with MK, when we called in my guide from the 22nd Dimension. my guide and HIS guides were telling me to continue my mission.  In fact, the answer was YES, YES, YES. Emphatic.
• NOTE: It actually wasn’t responsive to my question because my question was how as I to balance mission and career. Bleh.
• I asked if I would come into union with my twin in 3D and she said, “It’s possible, but you still haven’t merged energies yet.” What? I don’t know what she’s talking about because we’ve merged in 5D already and can talk telepathically.

Three hours later, my headache hadn’t dissipated.  I already tried shopping, eating, etc. — and ended up buying Past Life Oracle cards to see if I could get a more accurate read on it — but nothing worked.  It wasn’t like a migraine either because I’m familiar with how that feels.

It was also the birthday of Jeeves so I stopped at a restaurant to buy food to celebrate it.  While waiting for my order, I did a 911 text to MK searching for answers and confirmation to the “blocked energy in the stomach area” diagnosis.  It was 3:00 in the morning, thereabouts, when I messaged him so I wasn’t expecting an immediate reply, but it came. He wanted to clear my energy STAT because it was blocking me.

He said that she was working on fear-based energies that’s why I didn’t resonate with it and, hence, the headache.  Now, I didn’t expect to do the clearing then and there — I was just getting ready to drive off going home, but that’s what happened.

He told me to lie down as he cleared me.  I told him that I was in the driver’s seat in my car and all I could do was lean back.  Then he started washing away her energy to get my energy and kundalini flowing.  And, as with our very first session, the results were immediate and kundalini-blowing, lol.  I came over and over and since I was parked facing a restaurant, a security guard came to inspect.  I tried to be as still as possible and pretend I was talking/texting to someone on my phone which is why I was idling, but that seemed like an episode for Hold the Moan on Reddit.

I was very circumspect with MK, trying to describe what was happening clinically without getting into “foreplay/tease” mode. But the guy could feel my energy and could tell when my hips were still vibrating even if I had stopped describing what was happening on my end already.

I know it sounds like an erotic short story — but my slickness seeped through my panties, past my dress and into the car seat.  Six hours have passed but I still keep cumming in waves as soon as my mind goes idle and i’m not busy doing a task. I know that sounds weird, but I figured, if my mind is active, I can block it but once it relaxes, I’m in receiving mode, the inverted triangle, legs wide open, ready to receive. This part, I don’t think I will tell him about.  But my headache is gone and I feel light, like I’m glowing from the inside — and no, this isn’t post-orgasmic glow.  I can feel the energy circulating through me again.

Even MK acknowledged that we had awesome sexual energy together and that it was good that we lived far apart — continents away, in fact.  And this reminds me of my former spiritual teacher (who betrayed me because he ended up wanting to possess me) — who was doing all sorts of magic on me because he wanted to teach me the ways of tantra with him as the recipient. And I get it, since I’m mostly made up of Fire.

So, I guess, the question is, if I get energy healing sessions where the unintended consequence of it is raising my kundalini which manifests in multiple orgasms, am I cheating on my Twin?  I can feel energy. This is how I dodge unwanted attention from men.  I’m one step ahead.  My weak spot though is being touched.  Once there is physical contact, I unravel.  Anything before that, it’s a cool discipline in being detached.

I can ask my twin telepathically but I’m afraid to do that because even now, I can feel him energetically sulking. Kind of like, he knows I needed the clearing but he didn’t like the part that some other man’s energy was mingling with mine. So on that score, I’m just going to stay quiet until he stops muttering under his breath.

The only good thing from that botched Akashic Record encounter was that I was able to purchase a big citrine rock on an orgone generator base — which I was really looking for.  They were selling various crystals in that place and this one was the one within my budget that had the most energy coming out from it.

Of course, that, and the kundalini rising from the clearing afterwards.  It isn’t over yet.  Waves, I tell you.

Waves.

 

 

Black Unicorns

It’ll be the third of January tomorrow.  Back to work, but I don’t feel like it.  It feels tiring just thinking about rejoining the whole 3D shebang. The entire time during the holidays, I hardly did any real life work, just purely mission here and there when I felt well enough to do it.

I had a whole list of things to do this morning and only 2 out of 5 got done.  I did a quick meditation but in the short amount of time, I was transported to this dark mountainside forest by a lake.  It was nighttime and the surroundings were just lit by the stars and the moonlight.  I was there wearing a yellow robe.  I had long hair.  I was observing my surroundings which were peaceful and tranquil and although I am scared in real life of the darkness, this time, I wasn’t so.

From the density of the forest, a Black Unicorn came forward.  It was strong and big, with a black coat so shiny it had a pearlescent sheen.  I stood still in silence as it approached.  Its horn was — I really can’t remember if it had a different color originally, but as it neared me, around two feet away from me, I could see its horn glowing an electric blue.  Then I bowed my head in recognition of it, and it then placed the tip of its glowing horn on my Third Eye.

Someone knocked on my door so I had to cut short my “trip”.  I bowed deeply in gratitude and looked into its soulful eyes.  Then it turned back and went back into the forest.

It sort of looked like this except that its horn was blue.

I’m not quite sure if my mind just conjured up what happened or if it really happened. A search on Google just told me that there was a dearth of information about Black Unicorns.

So far, the most informative piece of information I got was this:

Rainbow energy is the ninth dimensional energy of the divine Black Unicorns. Black Unicorns are magical in every way! They are majestic and graceful, gentle and peaceful creatures. They leave a glorious trail of rainbows wherever they fly. Their black powerful wings and wingspans are truly magnificent. The horn itself holds many magical and crystalline light properties. The black unicorn will bend its head and touch your heart chakra with its radiant white horn for deep healing at a ninth dimensional level. Their healing is swift and immediate, just like the unicorns themselves. To connect with the black unicorns, simply ask. A simple invocation is included below.

Every person has their own unicorn, black or white. Ask and focus on your powerful intent to connect with your own unicorn. They love to be around gentle loving souls, especially children who have the purity and innocence that they have. They also love to be of service to humanity, especially in these pivotal times of ascension. They heal at a deep soul level so be specific with what you want when you call upon them. You can ask for healing for soul healing, karmic healing, family/ancestral healing or simply, just raising your frequency to a higher level. They can also assist with the gentle cleansing and realignment of our 12-chakra system. The black unicorns will only give you the healing that is for your level of energy.

The gentleness and purity of the radiant Black Unicorns will give you so much joy and peace, once you connect with them. They embody the qualities of innocence, purity, compassion, kindness, gentleness, unconditional love, peace and magic. They will assist you in developing these qualities within to shift you towards the ninth dimensional frequencies necessary for our earth’s ascension.

Here is a simple invocation to connect with the black unicorns to raise your light body frequency:

“Beloved black unicorns, I ask for your divine presence to connect with me. Please send me healing energy from your horns of light and magic. I ask for deep healing for my soul and all my light bodies. I am ready. Thank you for your service.”

I tried to meditate in the afternoon to find out more about the Black Unicorns.  Maybe my guides would tell me.  But the new puppy was always calling attention to it, and I was saving charging cables and whatnot from being chewed that I wasn’t able to get back to that state.

Oh, I’m also going to have an Akashic Record reading done tomorrow and, truth to tell, I am very nervous about it.  What if she’s like my last reader who told me that my twin and I wouldn’t come into physical union?  I know I’ll be able to handle the news but it will still hurt like a bitch.  What if she tells me that I’m really not a special snowflake and I have no business guiding or healing others?  On that score, I would beg to disagree because I have helped a lot of people ever since I started my spiritual business. Then again, I really don’t know what she’s going to tell me. Still, I’m nervous.

Divine Compassion

I had many questions for Agatha — Psychic Consultants on YouTube — and I’m going to write them down here:

ME: “I watch your YouTube videos and your Vimeos. Some of the more salient points you make are: ‘it doesn’t matter whom you love, as long as you love’ and ‘it doesn’t matter whether you’re together or you’re apart because the point is self-realization’. So are you saying that physical union is close to impossible? (I won’t say impossible because everything is possible). Or that if we choose to unconditionally love our twin and stay faithful to that love, that we should resign ourselves to the fact that it may not manifest and still be happy with that outcome (i.e. that we are without a partner)? But wouldn’t someone who finds themselves without a partner still have to “make do/make happy by themselves” even without going on this twin flame journey anyway? What choice do they have unless they want to wallow in sadness and misery? It’s just that this TF thing is starting to seem like a support group for those unrequited in love.

AGATHA (Reply):  “Only if you assume that being happy regardless of being together or apart results in being apart! What if the opposite was true?? Everything I post is about people realising union and harmony in every possible form. I don’t believe the point is self-realisation at all… I believe the point is JOY. And living a life of total freedom and not needing circumstances to be anything in order to feel that joy. When we love regardless, when we let the energy and power of love flow through us, we don’t really care who or what is around, no, or whether we are in ‘union’ or not, alone or not. But that doesn’t mean surrendering to a life of unhappiness and not being in union or being alone! We get happy FIRST. We be in love FIRST. Then we get what we are destined for. Which is always our highest vision for ourselves. It just works that way. Well in my understanding of this work that I do simply because it is happening. I just share it how it moves through me. And I fully believe and experience that these concepts, when applied, have very positive, practical implications.”

ME (Rejoinder): If you review your video, you did say that the point was self-realization, however, I do believe in the points you raised about living a life of joy. But my question was geared towards reconciling both salient points you’ve made which brings me to “it doesn’t matter whom you love, as long as you love”. I think it would be safe to assume that most of your subscribers, even other readers here on YouTube, that are on a TF journey are seeking for union with their twin in 3D and not only in 5D. And that we’re doing the work (inner purging, healing, et al.) because we want union with our twin, not some karmic partner or person from the same soul group. Because, as I’ve mentioned, if the point was “love the one you’re with (regardless whether TF or not)”, why go on the TF journey anyway? And since in the course of connecting with your true authentic self, you figure out who the other half of your soul is which truth you CANNOT UNKNOW or deny if you still want to stay in your authentic self, then wouldn’t it be more honest to frame the TF journey as one wherein one “seeks an energetic union with your twin (in 5D) to generate tremendous amounts of love to give to others who are NOT your twin (in 3D)?” What bothers me is the fact that physical union is being dangled like a carrot on a stick when the bottomline is “once you get to this point of knowing and accepting the terms of your TF soul contract, you will also have learned to access so much love that you must necessarily spread it to others as part of your mission, regardless of the fact that you will be alone”. If the be all and end all is learning to redirect our love for our twin onto something/someone else, then why not come out with that from the beginning instead of getting up hopes for physical union with a twin?

Well, that’s where the conversation ends for now.  Still waiting if a reply is forthcoming.

Anyway, do you get my question?

I meditated for some answers. First, I did a chakra clearing with the Soul Star. And, surprisingly, much clearing didn’t have to be done for my third eye, throat, heart, and the yellow chakra.  My orange chakra was the one that was blocked.  I felt it was the seat of fear and worries and it was gathering there, blocking the flow of energy, and it took some time to clear.  I even had to call in the Violet Flame to assist the clearing. My base chakra was fine.  Yes, glowing red light full of passion, haha.

 

After that, I was taken to the Akashic Records, it was like a big hall, a big library but without a roof. The books seemed color coded but there were some books that were gold. (All the books were edged in gold though). Our “host” was an old man but not really a man, not an alien, but he was different.  He didn’t speak, but just opened one gold book to some pages. The pages had a slight glow to them. The writing on it was glyphs, but I understood it. There was a mark saying that it was amended to allow union for me and M in 3D, in this lifetime.

My twin was beside me the whole time and I was showing it to him.  Next, we were taken to a pool, like in a resort.  Something like an infinity pool with the most azure blues. And this is where it gets strange because that same scene was cutting back and forth into its 5D and 3D version. The 5D had a backdrop of stars, glowing violet trees, while the 3D version was well — 3D, your usual resort.  I had to immerse myself in the pool.  It was just what I had to do. Just me, not my twin.

After that, we returned to the Great Hall (that’s what I’ll call it again) but we didn’t linger there.  We found ourselves in the void, and that’s when Quan Yin, the Great Mother of Mercy and Compassion, appeared to us/me. She gave comfort, told me how she knew of my suffering, and assured me of union. Then she blessed me with a gift — it was a gem, like a red ruby that fit in the palm of my hand.  I didn’t know what it signified and when I asked, I was told that I’ll know what it is for when the time comes. I was motioning to share it with my twin who was beside me, but Quan Yin told me that he had his own too.  And that’s when she showed me his.  His wasn’t a ruby.  It was the same cut and shape, but his was more of like an ice blue diamond, and he emanated the same light of the gem throughout his light body. We were told that we were to work with both.

So I imagined connecting my and my gem to him and his through the infinity symbol running through our hearts, connecting us.  We were glowing with a pink light and on the outer was yellow light.  Similar to the yellow/orange ray that accompanied Quan Yin’s departure.  I thanked her for the message and decided to do a reading since I didn’t quite understand what the gem was for or her instructions.  (I know, I know, this starseed needs quite a lot of clarification)

I won’t delve into the details of the reading, but to my surprise, the cards I picked confirmed my encounter with Quan Yin.  My significator was the Page of Cups. After that came Judgment, and after that came Alchemy.  Now, the Alchemy card in my deck (I use the Wizard’s Tarot deck) is depicted by a scientist (or maybe he’s a wizard, I’m not sure), mixing two elements into one bottle — and get this — the elements he was mixing were the same color as the gems we had just received! Not only that, but the final card of the spread was the Lovers. And in my deck, it is pictured by two people facing each other, writing on a desk, and overseeing them is this beautiful lady with golden hair and dressed in a flowing white dressed, holding an red apple by her chest.

Whoaaaaaaa. And it was the same position/posture of Quan Yin prior to handing me the gem.

So I looked up what the gems meant. For the ruby gem, this is what I got:

The color of a healthy awakened heart chakra ranges from a soft pink to a deep ruby red. Ruby is the stone of Lady Master Nada, who is a member of the Karmic Board and serves as the representative of the third ray (pink ray) of divine love. She is very much involved with the initiation and sponsorship of twin flames and the Aquarian age family.

As for my twin’s ice blue diamond gem, apparently it comes from Mother Mary (both Mother Mary and Quan Yin are different aspects of the Divine Feminine). This is what Mother Mary said about it in a channeling:

“The initial purpose of this gift of my essence was to begin to heal the wounds and illusions that had grown so dense upon Gaia; to begin to open and heal your hearts and expand your consciousness that you might begin to understand that you were caught in the mental and emotional illusions of humanity. I more deeply seeded humanity in order that the heart consciousness awakening, the Great Awakening, could truly begin. x x x It is what you call instantaneous combustion of healing because you cannot go forward in the fullness of who you are unless that healing has occurred.“

Again, I am awestruck.  My twin is awake and is healed or is currently being healed at a fast rate.  And my heart chakra has blossomed into a deeper love.  Alternatively, ruby also supports life situations and it is a welcome gift because my 3D life is teetering on the brink of collapse.  I’m just comforted knowing that the ascended masters know about it and are supporting me.

That’s it for now.  Namaste.