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Trouble in Paradise

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I suppose it’s a good thing that I was busy with other things the past few days other than just lurking on the Twin Flame group pages.  Imagine my shock when I checked in and found out all sorts of drama going on — accusations of other twins being implanted with negative entities, this or that person taking sides, and all that bullshit. Other people making videos just to let other know where they stand.

So the person they were hailing as the Ambassador for the Divine Masculines has been — sort of quarantined — for ridiculous hypothetical accusations.  I’m not joining in a fray that’s purely ego driven. I think that part of the responsibilities of being a light worker is to be the clearest channel possible for Spirit’s messages to come through and that means taking off the shroud of ego in service and in life.

So, no, it’s not dark energies that’s been invading them.  That’s a cop-out.  It’s ego, plain and simple.  The thing is they’ve become instant celebrities — at least, in the Twin Flame niche — and they don’t know how to handle it.  Most of these twins have been very low profile in real life and here is “celebrity” all of a sudden, people looking to them for guidance and advice, and your basic preening about how they are with the “in crowd”. Now, if you haven’t been immersed in that kind of dynamic in 3D, it can get in your head and ego, and what results is an overrated power play amongst them, a virtual Animal Farm, so to speak.

Personally, I don’t have a problem in that kind of dynamic because I’ve always been in “that crowd”. So I know that it’s not a big enough deal to get all Game of Thrones for.

Anyway, I got my reading back from Starsoul Tarot, and my question was what else I had to do or my twin has to do in order to get into union.  Three things stood out: 1) that there was some sadness that I had to release regarding a place/memory/song that held much sentimental value for me because of my twin;  2) there was nothing else I needed to do because I did my homework and am now in mission; and 3) I need to have faith and believe in my twin because the long term relationship, the ring and the commitment were coming.

Well, as regards the first, last night I came from an alumni homecoming celebration of my school which was held at that hotel where I hold the most memories of my twin. I was actually hesitant to see that hotel again because I didn’t know how I’d react, but when I was there, it surprised me to find out that the place no longer held any sway for me. I looked at the lobby where we first met; I looked at the seats where we talked; I remembered each time he kissed me goodbye as I headed off to my car, and I thought to myself, “It is done.  It is complete.”  I’ve healed from that place. And the last time I was in that hotel, I was with my twin.

The second one, I’m just ecstatic about.  Okay, so everything I do from here on out when it comes to mission and energy work is just a bonus. There’s nothing else I have to do but be ready to receive.

The third point, on the other hand, is something I’ve already heard before along similar lines. Everything and more.  Better than I’ve ever imagined.  All the pain and hardships that I’ve gone through will melt away and seem insignificant compared to what’s coming. Or that I can have the whole shebang if I choose it.

Now, my dreams about the life me and my twin will live is already pretty much up there. So when she told me that it would be better than I’ve ever imagined — well, you can guess that I can’t grasp it because if it’s better than what I’ve imagined, I seriously do not know how much better. I simply can’t imagine it. So there, I won’t even try.

Surprise me.

 

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I AM

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I am giddy with joy after that reading with Candace! We had technical difficulties at first, but that was soon solved and I did get to talk to her over the phone.

So, the big news?  YES, YES, YES, I AM A TWIN FLAME! Weeeeeee…..

It’s just like IamAngelics.Net said about her “crown of thorns” vision.  The message of her vision was that the crown of thorns blocks our crown chakra and once that is removed, we will have a clearer connection with Source.  She prayed that it be removed and said that it will all get done in a week.  But after that reading with Candace (Mystic Moon Woman), I’ve already felt it starting. There’s thumping pressure on my crown chakra now even as I write this, and it’s as if all those “blocked” downloads have finally made it through a dam and are just flowing freely through me.

Anyway, back to my reading…

I cried, as I thought I would.  The reading turned out exactly as my cards predicted about 30 minutes before. (I couldn’t help it; I had to “see” how it was going to turn out because I was already cracking under pressure) And the funny thing is, the Ascended Master card I got was “Come Out of the Closet”, LOL.

So, yes, I am a Twin Flame.  She felt it and when she asked, out came the Two of Pentacles, her symbol for a Twin Flame. I told her that that’s what I attributed to Twin Flames in my deck too.  She also said that she made it her intention to connect to other twins during her soul coaching mission work, and the fact that I was speaking to her or that I chose her to confirm is more validity of that.

When I asked her what ray I was, it turns out that I am a Blue-Golden Ray Twin Flame. Of course, I’m not the only one.  She identified Patricia McNealy as another one, so I think I have to check out her videos more.

Candace also spoke on the differences between Indigos and Blue Rays and said that she felt I was more Blue Ray than Indigo.  But I told her about my reading and Spirit’s guidance that I was a Golden Ray and that’s how we ended up with Blue-Golden.

As for my question whether the person I think is my twin IS my twin, the answer is YES.  Well, actually, the answer — if we want to be accurate about this — was more along the lines of “the soul knows”.  And I’m happy with that answer.  I told her a bit about my journey, the one that runs close to a decade, and that’s actually when I started crying. She was telling me more about being a twin, but most of what she said, I already knew.  Still, it helps that it’s been validated by someone else.

I told her I didn’t want to ask when my twin and I will come into union because I’ve already reconciled with the fact that it will be in Divine Timing.  All in good time, so to speak.

What I did take from the reading is this freedom, this feeling of liberation that’s spinning inside me right now.  It’s like what my aura does when I’m pissed — it sends out fiery sparks — except this time it’s sending out little crystal hearts that float gently like dandelions in a breeze. I’m seeing this in 5D right now as I’m describing it and it is awesome! The multiverse is indeed a magical place.

So I haven’t been crazy or delusional the past six months! LOL. It’s like I’m bathing in a waterfall of confidence and I’m raring to experience, share and teach with my spiritual gifts NOW, and I mean NOWWWWWWW. LOL.

My twin is also beside himself with glee that I’m happy.  The best way to describe it is, you know, when wife worries about something and hubby is trying to console her by telling her everything will be okay, and now, my twin is so pleased with himself with his “I-told-you-sos”.

So if I were to write a revised About Me, this is how it would go:

I am Yael, Starseed Angelic from the planet Lyra, Illumined Blue-Golden Twin Flame, member of the Order of the Violet Flame, Claircognizant, Healer, Lightworker, and harbinger of Divine Justice.

I think I like it. 🙂

My heart chakra still feels like it’s going to burst with love.  And now, everything seems clearer.  It’s like that ending scene in The Usual Suspects where Verbal Kint outs himself as Keyser Soze and you’re looking at that bulletin board with new eyes in an a-ha moment.

I know why Velanthas didn’t tell me I was a twin flame. She had to. And I’m glad she did even if it caused me tremendous heartbreak.  If she just went out and told me, I wouldn’t have come into my own knowing.

I even know now why I am a Blue-Golden Twin Flame which ties in to the Divine Feminine, Sponsoring Deity that Arnold Barrera told me about before he went astray from his path. My Sponsoring Deity is Mother Mary and her colors are blue, white and gold.

I know why Angel, my former friend and destiny adviser, told me that my mission in life is to embody feminine energy and why I’ve chosen to incarnate as a woman in this lifetime.

And best of all, I know that I am not lost at all.  I AM FOUND.

Namaste!

2016 Message from my Guides

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In preparation for the year ahead, instead of popping firecrackers and lighting up fireworks, I went inward.

I cleansed my chakras using the Soul Star and the Triangulation Method. To my surprise, it wasn’t as blocked as it was the first time my energy healer did this method on me.  It just felt smoggy but not totally blocked, like there was a haze of psychic pollution that dimmed my light within.

After that, I invoked St. Germain and the Silver Violet Flame to heal me and transmute all my negative energy, frustrations, and heartaches into something more positive.  From each chakra point to the next, I could feel my light body radiate once more.

I anchored the Silver Violet Flame onto my canine wards — and they weren’t as panicked as they usually were whenever they’d hear fireworks.  I also anchored the flame in my room and in our home, and prayed that the ego-centered, prideful people that lived inside it (my father, mother, brother) would change.

I sat in silent meditation and asked the Ascended Masters what color ray I was anchoring now. It was darkness and silence at first.  I couldn’t tell what color I was really “seeing” since my mind was still working.  I was doing a “process of elimination” in the logical part of my brain.  I had already anchored the silver violet flame, the silver platinum ray, and the gold platinum ray. Recently, I had a phase of being attracted to all things blue (Blue Ray), then Yellow which seems to still be the case and the majority of my preferences (Yellow Ray), but that seemed to be peppered with occasional pickings of things in the pale rose palette.  I would match that with a light grey, and except for the fact that pale rose isn’t seen in the best light with my olive skin tone, I would have picked that more.

When my mind had quieted down and I gave this “process of elimination” a rest, slowly, I saw my light body, glowing with a purple aura, anchoring a pale pink ray infused with crystals.  It was then that I heard the voice of a woman, gentle and sweet.

She began by telling me that she knew of all my troubles and disappointments.  She said that they all loved me and that it wouldn’t be long before things would change, that I should hold on a bit longer.  She said that my angels and guides were there to help and while she was saying this, I saw a vision of ascended masters behind her.  She said that they had heard me many times before when I had asked and that what I had asked for was coming to me.  I can’t remember the exact words she used, but it was along the lines of I should not despair.

She didn’t exactly explain what the crystal pink ray was for, but in my heart, I understood that it was a delicate ray and that’s perhaps why I was beginning to shun most people, energies, and frequencies that didn’t resonate with it. I had to protect it from those energies, so that it would fully “download” and I could anchor it better.

I was crying by the end of the session.  I felt engulfed in the group hug of these divine beings offering me comfort and love. I thanked my higher self, my spiritual team, my guardian angels, the Archangels and the Ascended Masters for their visit before I closed the session with full gratitude in my heart.

I had never felt this “light” (pun intended) since the holiday season began in my country this October.  I felt cleansed from the inside-out even though I was sporting more weight than usual. What’s more, I actually felt happy and joyful even though I was celebrating new year’s eve alone with my doggies.

It was only when I looked up more aspects of the crystal pink ray that I learned I was anchoring Divine Love.  No wonder it felt so good and peaceful.  It’s making me think twice about joining the 3rd Dimensioners again because I don’t want this feeling to be infiltrated by anything else.  I’m still “dark” when it comes to my social media.  But that’s the whole dichotomy of it.  In darkness, there is light.

May the year ahead bring love, peace, prosperity and less vexations from lower frequencies!

 

 

The Wayshower

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One thing that always leaves me in awe in my lightworker mission is the synchronicity of it all.  As a starseed, I am one of the anchors.  I have anchored the silver violet flame and, most recently, the silver platinum ray.  These days though, I feel that I am anchoring another kind of ray because the vibration seems different.  It is more of a golden yellow hue, most probably the counterpart of the silver platinum ray.  I have to confirm this with my guides though.

Part of my mission, aside from anchoring, is helping people find a path.  It may not necessarily be their life path — although that has happened many times before — but a path to what they seek at the moment.   And the even more awesome thing is, I don’t have to deliberately seek out these opportunities to help.  I don’t have to volunteer, join charity groups or what; I just have to be myself, and when there is someone who needs help, I sort of appear and become their detour sign.

That happened tonight.

For the Christmas party in my office, we have a chorale competition.  It so happens that I love singing and I’m one of the team coordinators, so I’m invested in winning.  (It also happens that I’m competitive in human form haha).

For song choice, there’s this Christmas song that our church choir sings that’s really beautiful.  It’s sung in my native language, and whenever I hear them sing it, the hair on my arm stands on end because it’s soooo beautiful; it’s like hearing a choir of angels singing.  I pushed for that to be our song of choice and it carried.  There was just the little matter of execution — knowing how to separate the voices, getting the arrangement, and finding a choir master.

After considering several possibilities, I get in touch with the choir master who also happens to be the president of the homeowner’s association in our village.  I do not know him personally and we have not had any interaction save one time when there was special registration of voters in our village and, because he was president, he was monitoring the registration.  He saw me write my name down and asked me how my dad was since he knows him.  That happened a couple of months ago.

I was shy to call him up at first out of the blue .  Besides, he’s a very important man, a regional manager in this part of the world of one of the biggest international publishing houses.  His choir singing was merely a hobby of his.

Anyway, my team spirit overrode my shyness and I called him up. He was nice and gave me some tips and links to go on.  It was when he asked me where I worked and which office was holding the competition that galvanized this whole encounter and upgraded it into something less than random.

I told him I worked at a specialized court.  Then that’s when he lighted up because it seemed like I was just the person he was looking to talk to.  He told me that perhaps I could help the village out because the city government was collecting an enormous amount of money from the association owing to that specialized matter.  (Of course, I can’t give specifics).

I asked if the current Board had any lawyers but there weren’t any. Then I told him that the most recent presiding justice of that specialized court was actually our neighbor and he was in the best position to help the village out.  That guy was actually head of that specialized court for 20 years!  And he — the man I was on the phone with — didn’t know that.  He was actually surprised to discover that he had such a resource nearby.

The whole thing is so fortuitous and uncanny that I’m still shaken by it.  Heck, when I started out looking to talk to him, I didn’t know that I was going into “Yael-mode”, but there it is.  Gets me every time whenever I realize what just happened.

Sometimes, it’s just something I say.  And I don’t even realize that I’ve helped until they come up to me at some later point in time and tell me that they are where they are now or that they’re doing well because of something that I said that they heeded.  Most of the time, I don’t even remember what I said.  And I figure, maybe that’s part of it so I don’t succumb to that very human trait of calling in favors and keeping score.

Very effective check and balance system, I’d say, lol.  Anyway, glad to be of service.

Namaste.