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My Twin and Ebay

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I think my twin just sent me a message through Ebay, LOL.

I’ve been rather detached (spiritually) from my Twin ever since I started mission.  My focus has been getting the word out and helping those who ask for healing or guidance.  It didn’t bother me though because even if I’m not in a “pining and whining” state, it doesn’t change anything.  I still love him.

He has been sending me signals though (mainly through syncs and song) that he feels he’s being ignored.  It was kind of like a kid throwing a tantrum and just hankering for attention.  I didn’t really indulge him though because, yeah, I’m tough love and all that.  The one who can resist puppy dog eyes from my dogs and crocodile tears from my nieces and nephews, lol.

Anyway, for a brief moment during my drive home, I was overcome with the emotion of overflowing love for him that I was crying and wiping my tears and just calling on my guardian angels to take over my driving since I was in such a state. Earlier on, I was shopping and bought Christmas decor quite gleefully since this was the first Christmas we’d spend “together”.  In love and about to get married — that’s how it felt.

When I got home, I quickly stepped into mission mode because Spirit was urging me to deliver messages to my subscribers.  You know, not straight on readings, but just teaching messages. I was intently looking for royalty free background footage as a workaround to me not showing my face on YouTube.

Sidebar — why do I not want to show my face on YouTube?

  1. It’s distracting.  Not that I’m butt ugly — far from it, but with some readers, I feel it’s getting to be an ego thing. I’ve been in the Broadcasting and Theatre fields so I do know how to “preen” for the camera; but that’s not the point during the mission.  It’s not about me.
  2. I don’t want to have to be concerned about make up and what I’m wearing and all that when I deliver Spirit’s messages.  I have enough of that in 3D.
  3. I feel that other folks’ first impression of me will be a hindrance to them actually getting the guidance they need.

It’s not that I’m shy — far from it. In real life, I can come off as intimidating sometimes.  If you remember the character Judy Dench played (the Queen) in Shakespeare in Love — well, that’s the vibe I give off. So I’m holding off on the up close and personal visual right now.

There are other reasons, but for now, I’m leaving it at my top three.

Now, back to my Ebay story.

While I was being a busybee searching for background vids to my voice-over, I checked my email and I had a message from a Seller I’d bought Shungite from. The strange thing was that I had this certain feeling while reading it that it really wasn’t from him,t but from my twin. In essence, he was apologizing for the delay in the package.  His phone (communication line) and wallet (finances) were lost and he had just realized I had a pending order. He then reassured me that he was shipping it out first thing tomorrow and that he would send bonuses because I had been so patient.

Since the arrival of my package was really time sensitive on my part (it had to coincide with my vacationing relatives still being there to bring it home with them), I decide to check where the item is coming from.

Guess what?  It’s from the state where my Twin lives.

Chills, right? It made me laugh out loud though and grin like a Cheshire cat.  Telepathically, I told him all was good.  I loved him and he could come when he’s ready.

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Psychic Dreaming

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Last night, I was weighed down by a lot of things.  I’ve got hives again and this time around they were located in my right arm and smack in the middle of my back.  I suppose some exotic insect bit me again, but part of me suspects that it’s ascension symptoms, brought on by the Hunter’s Moon this October.

That was itching enough to be bothersome.  And even though I am still full go on my mission — I just installed video editing software and all that — the response on my trial video up on YouTube was short of dismal. I had one thumbs down and about 30 views.  Which brought me to thinking if I really did have “spiritual gifts” and if I should share them publicly.

I took Benadryl to help me sleep despite the itching, but it seemed like I didn’t need it.  I fell asleep while doing self-healing Reiki on myself. Woke up and tinkered around the computer for a bit and then fell back to sleep.  That’s when I had this strange dream.

I was in an illustrious and old campus, walking by a pathway beside one of the big buildings.  I stopped by a hawker’s stand.  There was this guy there giving out flyers and samples (not quite sure what the samples were for, but they looked like micro-cassette tapes).  He was a psychic and I was looking at him and his wares, curious if he was the real deal.

While I was doing this, things started happening to me.  I turned the golden knob of the grills nearby which revealed a secret passageway to the college down below.  And when I looked up at one of the life-sized statues that decorated the college (it looked like St. Francis of Assisi in my dream although I’m not sure), the statue suddenly turned its head to me. Jeepers, this was getting creepy.

When I turned down to look at the guy’s calling card which he had handed out earlier and which seemed to contain my initial logo for my website, the logo was spinning as though it had life.

That’s about all I remember, but I think there was much more.  I think Spirit was telling me that I did have psychic powers and not to doubt it because the “psychic hawker” by the wayside didn’t have an inkling that all those strange things were happening to me. Okay, okay, maybe I can help some folks out. I’m still not definitely backing down on this.  I have to birth it and let God.

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Telepathic Arguments with my Twin

I’m the one with Mars in Aries and since this Supermoon is in Aries, I’ve had to catch my temper many times the past couple of days.  Thank God that we’ve been given guidance about how this will affect us, so no bridges were burned so far.

On the other hand, I’ve felt my twin picking an argument with me several times now, telepathically though. I feel that he is lashing out at me, but I didn’t want to engage because I could tell that it is his own frustration and anger with himself that’s the source.  You know how men pick a fight so that women would break up with them?  That’s how it felt like.  I told him I was here to stay and that I wouldn’t go.  I suspect it is his own feelings of self-worth that are at play here.  He thinks that because of his failed relationships, his codependent way of coping with problems, that he’s no good for me. But I know that that argument is neither true nor valid.

So I’m letting him stew for a while.  I miss our loving connection but these are issues that have resurfaced for a purpose.  He needs to heal them and get rid of the guilt he associates with them.  All is forgiven.  I’m not pressuring him anymore to fit his healing and return with my timeline.  He just needs to do it.

In the meantime, I will continue to heal myself to help him heal.  He is, after all, my twin.  I’m just glad that I am in a place right now where I can tell what this is.  If I were any less enlightened, I would have responded likewise in anger and frustration.

 

Angel Lights

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I saw a brilliant flash of blue light today out of nowhere. Kind of like this but with the brighter more cobalt blue and a bigger radius.

 

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I was in the office, my computer monitor wasn’t turned on yet and there was just ambient overhead lighting. So it wasn’t, you know, residual vision from looking at something else. Apparently, it might have been an “angel light” (Check out this link).

That’s the way Spirit usually works with me. It shows me something either in my mind’s eye or even in real life. I usually don’t know what it means and try to figure it out and then the answer appears. Kind of like a scavenger hunt which I like since I’m into researching and all that. So I just want to say that Spirit usually sends messages in a form/way that you would most likely receive and understand them.

A few moments later, I realize what this was. I sent a message to my “no-contact” twin yesterday telling him that I loved him after all this time. The whole time since then, I have been asking my guides for signs or confirmation that I did the right thing. And now this! But I’ve been asking myself, why Archangel Michael? And then I remembered that I do the AA Michael Attunement regularly where he puts his seal on the throat chakra — the center of communication. I actually got my answer!

Earlier in the day, I watched a movie alone and got to wondering if I’m going to be watching movies alone, sans my twin, for the rest of my life.  Questions like “is this going to be just in 5D?” were running through my head, not in a depressing way but more like, okay, if 5Ds all it’s going to be, then half-glass full thinking still, 5D is great anyway. And I resolved to “talk” with my twin in 5D as soon as I got home.

Anyway, after regaling my angel lights experience to my TF groups, I went on to meditate, as planned.  It was different.  My twin was telling me to basically shut up and just listen. So I did.  He told me he loved me and then asked me if I would allow him to love me.  Then I felt like I was drowning.  I felt weak and woozy and actually had to lay down from lotus position because I felt I couldn’t breathe.  My heart chakra was doing its work and I felt a bit of sharpness there.  And that’s when I realized that for the first half of this journey, I was actually the runner and that I still had issues being the recipient of love — control issues.  Giving love wasn’t an issue with me.  I ultimately had control over whether or not to give it, but I do have an issue with other people giving me love/stuff/money because I get anxious about what they’ll want back for it and if I’ll be able to give it. That’s why my twin was posing this question to me.

And because I rarely shut up even when told to, I still kept asking if this was all going to be just in 5D, yadayadayada.

When I got out of meditation, I check my phone and the first post I see is this:

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Paperclip?  What the heck, right?  What message could there be in a paperclip laying on the ground?

But it was a message for me.  And the other twin flame who posted it was the medium/messenger.  It was because of a paperclip that I had an epiphany that my twin loved me.  I was very playful then and I was ready to dismiss him as just one of those men in my “harem”.  That is, until the “paperclip incident”. I think I’ve written about it before, so I won’t repeat that story.

Point is, my twin was sending me a message.  He loves me.  I’d better get used to it.  The issues that resurfaced during meditation though gives me pause.  That drowning feeling. I know I love him, but will I let him love me?

Hmmm.

Random Conversation with my TF

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I pressed the wrong button and everything I was writing was gone like a puff of smoke.  Yeesh.

(laughs) Well, you were stressing about things I told you not to worry about. 

I wanted to vent. I’m in a “Bad Fatty! No Donut!” kind of place right now.  I’m not overweight or obese yet, still in the normal range, but I’m bloated and my face is fat. And i’m rather embarrassed that I told you in my letter to you that I’ve lost weight, got featured in the papers and all when, if you look at me now, my so-called progress seems unremarkable.

I told you, it doesn’t matter. I was already attracted to you even when you were much bigger. You think now that I’ve realized that I love you, that’s going to change?

You love me?

Yes, I do. Didn’t you hear that song on the radio this morning when you set out for work? That was me wishing you well as you started your day.

Yeah, I heard it. And I know it was from you. (smiles) I also like how you let me do my work without interrupting me. I think it’s very considerate of you. And I keep waking you up in your time zone, haha.

It’s okay. I like how you sort of tug at my shirt sleeves to get my attention.

I shopped a lot today, more than I meant to.  I told myself I was just going to get the grey sneaks, but I ended up getting two shirts, a bag and a skirt. They weren’t cheap either.

(laughs) Don’t worry about it!  It’s your birthday. When we are together, you can get anything you want. I’ll take care of it.

Now, that’s the sort of thing you say that makes me question these conversations we’re having, and make me think that I’m just making these up in my head. But ever since that night that we merged in 5D, it took me by surprise as well,  but I could hear you.  Clearly.  In my head. Answering my questions, making witty repartee, or even just telling me to calm down when I wrapped up in road rage or scolding me gently whenever I end up doing something asinine.

I hear you, too. Sometimes, it makes me smile while doing something totally unrelated and I end up looking like a crazy fool in love.  Which I am.

So, we’re not crazy?  We’re really “talking”?

I call it “senior moments” sometimes. (laughs)

Come on, be serious.

This is how we communicate and stay connected for now. I’m still wrapping up some stuff here, but I’ll be there soon. I want to be there. I’d already be there, if I could.

So, what’s the hold-up?

Making a gracious exit with minimal fall-out from “her”, setting up provisions for my sons while I’m 10,000 miles away.  Seeing to it that I have enough to start a new life with you.

And your healing? How’s that working out?

Honestly, it’s a work in progress.  I’ve sorted out the most basic parts, but it’s still painful knowing that the family I built didn’t work out and that the person I chose to spend my life with no longer serves my higher interest.

I know you’re hurting. (holds hand) 

I feel it, too.  That’s why sometimes,  I just break down in tears out of the blue, even though I feel blissfully ecstatic knowing you’re with me, in me.  Saying goodbye hurts, even if you know you have to go.

I love you.

Me, too. (embrace)

We’ll work on it together.  I’ve anchored the Violet Flame and the Emerald Ray with you, and surrounded you with Archangel Michael’s Crystalline Shield of Light. I know you’re really not familiar what I’m talking about, but it’s going to work.

I know it’s working. I can feel it, but if someone else asked me about it, I wouldn’t know how to explain what’s going on.

That’s okay. (smiles) They’re helping us. We need to get together in 3D to be able to ascend, you know.

Yeah, you told me. Working on it as we speak.

Speak? (laughs)

There you go again. (smiles)  Hey, don’t you have to get going?

Yes, but I like talking to you.

I’ll keep you company during the drive home.  That is, unless you get riled up again by motorcycles and slow drivers on the road. (laughs)

(grimaces) Hmmm. I have no comment. 

(big laugh)

Okay, I’ll get going now.  Wait, that song that’s playing in the cafe?  Is that some sort of cheesy goodbye message from you? 😛

(singing) When will I hold you? When will I touch you? When will I see you again?

Cheesy! But there are butterflies in my stomach now.  You keep finding ways telling me I’m loved. I love you.

Okay, go.

(smiles)  Talk to you later.

We will.

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