First off, I apologize for the choppy post. It’s past midnight and I took a sleeping pill since I need to wake up early tomorrow.
I got some much needed guidance from Jen today. I actually felt the blocks in my heart clear and get the energy flowing again.
Turns out, my dream about D was important. Jen said that even my TF’s kids were part of my soul group, and by him “paying his respects” — gosh, I need to change that phrase because that makes me sound like I’m dead — okay, “courtesy call” then, it was an acknowledgement that I was welcome in our soul group. And, of course, it had to be D, who is a mama’s boy and is naturally opposed to my presence.
Basically, they’re still together, no emotional connection, but more like brother and sister. However, between this Equinox and this — I forgot the term because really, since we only have two seasons where I live, all the changing seasons thing is actually irrelevant to my existence. It’s just either sunny or raining. Anyway, whatever it was, it’s going to happen on May 1 — which, to me, is simply Labor Day. That period though — March 20 to May 1 — is set to be a big wave of awakening and recognition of the Divine Masculine of their Divine Feminine counterparts.
If I don’t stabilize in 5D, then he’s not going to “recognize” me. Jen said I was wobbly right now, which was okay because we get that way sometimes. I said that much of my frustration was because I was already that way BEFORE the fucking session. In any case, all water under the bridge. In order to stabilize in 5D, I have to be in the present, in the NOW and just continue to be thankful — be in a state of gratitude — no matter what 3D presents to me. She said that I had to take the lead because I am the Divine Feminine. And, really, I should listen to my own readings because that’s exactly what I said also to the collective.
I did tell her about the fire in one of the malls that my TF designed. And she said that that was an important sign as well. Their egos are being dissolved by fire, like a phoenix rising from the ashes. And, again, I said that too in my reading for this week which means I should listen to myself more, lol. She even told me to tell that to the collective and I said that I already did.
As regards the remaining 30% ancestral healing that needs to be done, Jen said that I didn’t need to clear anything anymore; that I had already cleared so much it was unbelievable. And of course, I told her about Linamarie, and she asked if she was a Twin Flame. I said I did see her in other TF boards but since I wasn’t active myself because I was hecka busy, I didn’t really know her. She was just recommended and I did enjoy my first session with her, so I went for a second.
And, once again, I got advised that I need to get readings from people who vibrate higher than I do. This is the part where the eye-roll comes in. The thing is, I don’t know that until after I get the read.
And since I was pesky and needed validation, I asked her if she was sure that I didn’t need to clear anything anymore. And she asked me what resonated with me more, her version or Linamarie’s? I told her that I had already cut karmic cords with my family around three years ago and I was even given a promotion by the karmic board with that crown that they gave me. And anything that I did after that was already my free will. I could choose to leave and let them live out the consequences of not spiritually evolving, but I chose to stay. And I felt that with my presence alone, they are improving and making better choices.
So there. That’s that. At least, a huge thorn has been lifted off my chest as regards that ancestral healing thing.
I told Jen that I kind of slid back into 3D mode and went into retail therapy to comfort myself and just kept buying bags. I think my bag buying spree is over now. I’m ready to go back to my “other Facebook”. With the exception of those bags that I didn’t quite like when it got to me, the rest are going to be part of my other line of business.
Okay, that’s it. I need sleep. Lots of work tomorrow.