Monthly Archives: January 2017

This Darned Kundalini



There was a troll who commented on my page, spewing vile hatred.  Of course, I deleted it. I recounted what happened to me during my meditation — my perceptions.  It wasn’t a technical paper where I had to have footnotes and proper citations based on the Harvard Bluebook in.  So since it did not add any value to my life whatsoever, I’ve deleted it.  Who has time for that anyway?  You don’t like what I write?  LOOK AWAY. It’s as simple as that.


Now, onto the Main Course:

Confession time.  I’ve had an intimate — well, fuck euphemisms — sexual encounter with my energy healer. Mitigating circumstance:  well, it was energetic.  We were doing a clearing session of my chakras using this modality the by-product of which was a kundalini rising.  The thing is, we discovered that we have an intense sexual chemistry together energetically.  And even when I say something perfectly innocuous and non-suggestive, he gets a hard on 10,000 miles away.  So we go through the session and my kundalini betrays me — well, not really.  I mean, it’s supposed to do that – rise.  I try to keep it as professional as possible, but I do know that when I get into a certain zone, all bets are off.  And that zone was reached.

In the end, we were both glad we didn’t live near each other although part of me wishes he did.  But that would just be a complication.

I got out of the “zone” before he did.  Even now, a couple of hours later, I can still feel his energy inside me. But I put a stop to it even when he wanted to keep it going because I didn’t want to feel uncomfortable with one of the best energy healers that I know.  He can harness my sexual energy and I can take his.

The session was geared towards further opening up my Third Eye.  And although I steered the conversation (well, pillow talk, sort of) towards that, he would answer but then again, he would “get busy with me” again. That’s when I put the brakes on.  I mean, if he were physically in front of me, if we were within five feet of each other, no doubt we’d have an excellent time exchanging energies and fluids and all that. Besides that type of scenario is the only one where I protective defenses down.

I like his energy though and I also miss having a lover.  He says that I am a “kundalini energy healer” and I suppose I’ve been that in the past without knowing the jargon for it.  I knew it.  There was a higher purpose for having this intense sexual energy within me.  Now, I’ll be able to heal others that way. How cool is that?  But first, I have to get certified in Ra Sheeba.



Black Unicorns Redux


I am no longer surprised why my 3D work can’t get done, LOL.

When I was looking for more insight on my Black Unicorn vision, I came across Bemay Le.  She is the Keeper of the Great Crystal, High Priestess of Atlantis, Cleopatra of Ancient Egypt, an Ascension Master of Rainbow Energy, The Legion of Black Dragons and Unicorns & the Sacred Arts of the Divine Feminine. So I messaged her the other day.

Today, she responded, thus:

BL: Black Unicorns are very sacred animals and work with the ancient divine feminine goddesses. The black ones only appear to those with the purest of hearts. I believe the blue horned ones are imbued and blessed with the blue ray starseed energies of protection, power and purity of Archangel Michael and Archaia Faith. I believe this blue horned black unicorn gave you a very magical and powerful blessing to open up your blue ray starseed third eye.


I then told her that I knew I was a Starseed and a Blue/Golden Ray Twin Flame. I also told her that as part of enhancing my abilities, I used the Divine Codes to help further open up my Third Eye the day after New Year. While I am mainly claircognizant, I do get visions from time to time, but I would like them to be clearer.

BL: Wonderful! I think your answers to your hopes of “seeing” came in the form of this blue horned black unicorn. You must have a very divine sacred connection to the black ones. I love them personally.

Your blue ray third eye will be activated immediately which means you can see very clearly indeed. I received both of mine (the eye of Horus and eye of Ra) from AA Michael when I was initiated as a blue ray protector for Gaia. Try it out.

Oh, it just occurred to me that I forgot to tell her about the Unicorn Energy that came upon me during the 11/11 Portal. What I did remember to tell her was that in my meditation this morning, I found it strange that a single teardrop wept from my left eye.  I found this seriously weird because I know when I am overcome with emotions and weep, and believe me, that’s not just one teardrop.  And when I Googled the Eye of Horus/Ra, there was the single teardrop.  And now, she was telling me about it. Which makes me really think that there are no coincidences in this world.

BL:  Sounds like your teardrop is confirmation of your blue ray eyes working! Love sacred water as it the representation of the divine mother and sacred feminine energies we hold within!

Most people think that the third eye is just one eye but it’s not. When you have both blue ray eyes open, it’s very very powerful and you will know deeply that it is two eyes you are seeing from, not one third eye. I haven’t bothered mentioning this but I will do a post on it when I have more time to settle back from my holidays.

I seriously think that if I stop whirling around checking off things on my to-do list, that I could reap major benefit from my 5D life — or at least major understanding.

But that’s another thing, too.  Remember my botched Akashic Record Reading yesterday? I did check out AA Uriel and here’s what I got on him:

87a4ab9d0e3fb0c09d981a7b77e3fffcUriel’s name means “God is light,” “God’s light,” or “fire of God,” because he illuminates situations and gives prophetic information and warnings. For example, Uriel warned Noah of the impending flood, helped the prophet Ezra to interpret mystical predictions about the forthcoming Messiah, and delivered the Cabala to humankind. Uriel has also been credited with bringing the knowledge and practice of alchemy-the ability to turn base metal into precious metal, as well as the ability to manifest from thin air-to humankind.

And this, too:

In many senses Archangel Uriel is the Archangel of illumination and is humanity’s link to the spiritual realms and Uriel can show you how to find your inner power, raise your vibration and accelerate your shift and into the higher realms of consciousness.

Archangel Uriel can also help you to learn to listen to your body’s inner wisdom, along with opening your channels to directly receive divine guidance.

Additionally things like the realm of ideas, creativity, insights, judgment, magic, alchemy, astrology, universal consciousness, divine order, the distribution of power, the cosmic universal flow and the Earth’s environment are all within Uriel’s rule.

Divine Alchemy, Manifestation, Prophecy and Second Sight — these were the things that I wanted to work on in the coming year and it looks as AA Uriel will be the perfect guide in this part of my journey.  Her, and the Unicorns.

And here’s something else.  Remember the Citrine Rock I purchased yesterday?  I got it not knowing anything about AA Uriel and only finding out today that Citrine is one of AA Uriel’s crystals. Now, I don’t think that’s a coincidence. Do you?

Energy Tourney Levelling


In the sport of Badminton, whenever there is a tournament, there is a “levelling” session first where participants get matched with other participants with the same skill set.  This is so the game becomes even, and all participants get the most out of the game.  The same principle applies whenever you’re just playing.  In order to “level-up”, you have to play with players who are ranked on a higher level than you in order to learn from them.

Why on earth am I talking about badminton?  Well, today, I got an “Akashic Record Reading”.  Yes, in quotes. One of my subscribers messaged me on my FB business page because she wanted to get in touch with another Twin from the same country. We chatted.  She seemed okay, and then she raved about this woman who gave Akashic Record readings who identified her as a twin and whatnot. I got excited and asked for leads to get in touch with this reader and, subsequently, made an appointed — which was today.

Prior to the reading, I was nervous.  So I got my Lemurian Seed Crystal and my Divine Crystal Grid Crystal out of my pouch and activated them while in the waiting room.  I even called in my guides to keep me company — and it was my guide from Lyra — I call her Fleur — who came in.  She helped keep my nervousness at bay with her lighthearted energy.

Come to think of it, I should have been tipped off by the energy of the person who came out of the room before it was my turn. The best I would describe it — all in retrospect, of course (which I am now kicking myself in the behind for) — was exasperation.  It wasn’t elation or the kind of energy that you’d get after a good healing session. It was more of an “Hmp” instead of an “Oooohhhh”.

Anyway, my turn came promptly at 2pm.  It was supposed to be a one hour session, but a we only got to 45 mins.  And I know because I timed it. Of those 45 mins., a good chunk of it was an interview.  I didn’t really see the purpose of it.  It’s like I was the one giving her information instead of her giving me some.  Then she said that my energy was blocked in the stomach area by dark energies which were preventing my light from shining through. Seriously, I didn’t know where she was getting what she was saying since I knew/know that I’m a clear channel now.  Especially since I just had a clearing with MK prior to the new year and I had a Reiju Reiki reattunement at the first hour of the new year.

She tells me that some guides of mine have to retire because they’ve been there since I was seven. So we did an invocation and clearing so that only the guides of love and light would remain. Sounds innocuous and good, right?  The thing is, after the session, I didn’t feel right.  I didn’t even sense any energy transfer from her. I mean, heck, the crystals I handled gave off more energy than she did. Plus, it left me with a gargantuan headache near the back of my head and this wasn’t the feeling after being energetically cleared.  Far from it.

Anyway, this was the information that I got from her (all after a million leading questions):

  • AA Uriel wants to work with me — (will have to check that out)
  • I have from a clan of witches (mother side) who weren’t really good because they were corrupted (bribes) and used their power for the dark side — this, after I told her I have never resonated with Wicca and/or Witchcraft even though I tried it.  I’ve always resonated with High Magick.
  • She kept asking about my grandfather, saying that he has some sort of power but didn’t tell me what
  • When I asked her if I should continue my mission, she said that I should stop it all together and concentrate on my career because it was through my career that I’d get what I wanted out of life.  Now, this is as off as off can be.  In my reading with Starsoul Tarot, the message was to continue my mission while waiting for my twin.  Even in my session with MK, when we called in my guide from the 22nd Dimension. my guide and HIS guides were telling me to continue my mission.  In fact, the answer was YES, YES, YES. Emphatic.
  • NOTE: It actually wasn’t responsive to my question because my question was how as I to balance mission and career. Bleh.
  • I asked if I would come into union with my twin in 3D and she said, “It’s possible, but you still haven’t merged energies yet.” What? I don’t know what she’s talking about because we’ve merged in 5D already and can talk telepathically.

Three hours later, my headache hadn’t dissipated.  I already tried shopping, eating, etc. — and ended up buying Past Life Oracle cards to see if I could get a more accurate read on it — but nothing worked.  It wasn’t like a migraine either because I’m familiar with how that feels.

It was also the birthday of Jeeves so I stopped at a restaurant to buy food to celebrate it.  While waiting for my order, I did a 911 text to MK searching for answers and confirmation to the “blocked energy in the stomach area” diagnosis.  It was 3:00 in the morning, thereabouts, when I messaged him so I wasn’t expecting an immediate reply, but it came. He wanted to clear my energy STAT because it was blocking me.

He said that she was working on fear-based energies that’s why I didn’t resonate with it and, hence, the headache.  Now, I didn’t expect to do the clearing then and there — I was just getting ready to drive off going home, but that’s what happened.

He told me to lie down as he cleared me.  I told him that I was in the driver’s seat in my car and all I could do was lean back.  Then he started washing away her energy to get my energy and kundalini flowing.  And, as with our very first session, the results were immediate and kundalini-blowing, lol.  I came over and over and since I was parked facing a restaurant, a security guard came to inspect.  I tried to be as still as possible and pretend I was talking/texting to someone on my phone which is why I was idling, but that seemed like an episode for Hold the Moan on Reddit.

I was very circumspect with MK, trying to describe what was happening clinically without getting into “foreplay/tease” mode. But the guy could feel my energy and could tell when my hips were still vibrating even if I had stopped describing what was happening on my end already.

I know it sounds like an erotic short story — but my slickness seeped through my panties, past my dress and into the car seat.  Six hours have passed but I still keep cumming in waves as soon as my mind goes idle and i’m not busy doing a task. I know that sounds weird, but I figured, if my mind is active, I can block it but once it relaxes, I’m in receiving mode, the inverted triangle, legs wide open, ready to receive. This part, I don’t think I will tell him about.  But my headache is gone and I feel light, like I’m glowing from the inside — and no, this isn’t post-orgasmic glow.  I can feel the energy circulating through me again.

Even MK acknowledged that we had awesome sexual energy together and that it was good that we lived far apart — continents away, in fact.  And this reminds me of my former spiritual teacher (who betrayed me because he ended up wanting to possess me) — who was doing all sorts of magic on me because he wanted to teach me the ways of tantra with him as the recipient. And I get it, since I’m mostly made up of Fire.

So, I guess, the question is, if I get energy healing sessions where the unintended consequence of it is raising my kundalini which manifests in multiple orgasms, am I cheating on my Twin?  I can feel energy. This is how I dodge unwanted attention from men.  I’m one step ahead.  My weak spot though is being touched.  Once there is physical contact, I unravel.  Anything before that, it’s a cool discipline in being detached.

I can ask my twin telepathically but I’m afraid to do that because even now, I can feel him energetically sulking. Kind of like, he knows I needed the clearing but he didn’t like the part that some other man’s energy was mingling with mine. So on that score, I’m just going to stay quiet until he stops muttering under his breath.

The only good thing from that botched Akashic Record encounter was that I was able to purchase a big citrine rock on an orgone generator base — which I was really looking for.  They were selling various crystals in that place and this one was the one within my budget that had the most energy coming out from it.

Of course, that, and the kundalini rising from the clearing afterwards.  It isn’t over yet.  Waves, I tell you.




Black Unicorns


It’ll be the third of January tomorrow.  Back to work, but I don’t feel like it.  It feels tiring just thinking about rejoining the whole 3D shebang. The entire time during the holidays, I hardly did any real life work, just purely mission here and there when I felt well enough to do it.

I had a whole list of things to do this morning and only 2 out of 5 got done.  I did a quick meditation but in the short amount of time, I was transported to this dark mountainside forest by a lake.  It was nighttime and the surroundings were just lit by the stars and the moonlight.  I was there wearing a yellow robe.  I had long hair.  I was observing my surroundings which were peaceful and tranquil and although I am scared in real life of the darkness, this time, I wasn’t so.

From the density of the forest, a Black Unicorn came forward.  It was strong and big, with a black coat so shiny it had a pearlescent sheen.  I stood still in silence as it approached.  Its horn was — I really can’t remember if it had a different color originally, but as it neared me, around two feet away from me, I could see its horn glowing an electric blue.  Then I bowed my head in recognition of it, and it then placed the tip of its glowing horn on my Third Eye.

Someone knocked on my door so I had to cut short my “trip”.  I bowed deeply in gratitude and looked into its soulful eyes.  Then it turned back and went back into the forest.


It sort of looked like this except that its horn was blue.

I’m not quite sure if my mind just conjured up what happened or if it really happened. A search on Google just told me that there was a dearth of information about Black Unicorns.

So far, the most informative piece of information I got was this:

Rainbow energy is the ninth dimensional energy of the divine Black Unicorns. Black Unicorns are magical in every way! They are majestic and graceful, gentle and peaceful creatures. They leave a glorious trail of rainbows wherever they fly. Their black powerful wings and wingspans are truly magnificent. The horn itself holds many magical and crystalline light properties. The black unicorn will bend its head and touch your heart chakra with its radiant white horn for deep healing at a ninth dimensional level. Their healing is swift and immediate, just like the unicorns themselves. To connect with the black unicorns, simply ask. A simple invocation is included below.

Every person has their own unicorn, black or white. Ask and focus on your powerful intent to connect with your own unicorn. They love to be around gentle loving souls, especially children who have the purity and innocence that they have. They also love to be of service to humanity, especially in these pivotal times of ascension. They heal at a deep soul level so be specific with what you want when you call upon them. You can ask for healing for soul healing, karmic healing, family/ancestral healing or simply, just raising your frequency to a higher level. They can also assist with the gentle cleansing and realignment of our 12-chakra system. The black unicorns will only give you the healing that is for your level of energy.

The gentleness and purity of the radiant Black Unicorns will give you so much joy and peace, once you connect with them. They embody the qualities of innocence, purity, compassion, kindness, gentleness, unconditional love, peace and magic. They will assist you in developing these qualities within to shift you towards the ninth dimensional frequencies necessary for our earth’s ascension.

Here is a simple invocation to connect with the black unicorns to raise your light body frequency:

“Beloved black unicorns, I ask for your divine presence to connect with me. Please send me healing energy from your horns of light and magic. I ask for deep healing for my soul and all my light bodies. I am ready. Thank you for your service.”

I tried to meditate in the afternoon to find out more about the Black Unicorns.  Maybe my guides would tell me.  But the new puppy was always calling attention to it, and I was saving charging cables and whatnot from being chewed that I wasn’t able to get back to that state.

Oh, I’m also going to have an Akashic Record reading done tomorrow and, truth to tell, I am very nervous about it.  What if she’s like my last reader who told me that my twin and I wouldn’t come into physical union?  I know I’ll be able to handle the news but it will still hurt like a bitch.  What if she tells me that I’m really not a special snowflake and I have no business guiding or healing others?  On that score, I would beg to disagree because I have helped a lot of people ever since I started my spiritual business. Then again, I really don’t know what she’s going to tell me. Still, I’m nervous.