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And I’m Dreaming of You Tonight

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Strange dream after watching (and not finishing) Castaway.  Working on something for the office and so I just picked a movie to play in the background but not really watch.

Well, the entire thing reminded me of my Twin Flame journey.  And the tears kept coming, my chest was hurting, and I didn’t get to sleep until it was about 6am.   And I was wondering if, like in the movie, I should just let him go, or like in Hancock, another movie, I should just try to be happy here with someone else.

When I did get to sleep, I had this strange dream.   I dreamt that I was in the US at my relatives’ house there.  For some reason, D (my TF’s eldest son) and his fiancee were there also.  I wasn’t minding him at first because I didn’t really know him, but later on, he approached me to give “respect”.  He told me that that’s why they were there, but that he actually lived around 3 hours out.  It was something like he was the “advanced party” of his dad.

And he was much smaller than I imagined him to be.  A little smaller than me, even.  I do know that he’s tall, like his father, but in my dream, he was small.

Next scene was that we were on a double date.  That’s the weird part.  He sort of set me up with his friend and even though I was “attached”, it was a different feeling trying to be nice and pleasant to someone new.

No more details of the date, but it seemed we went back to the house afterward and there was a presentation.  And D was being accommodating, pretty much like my cousin when he was here, and he danced with us except he was wearing this striped red and white (big 4 inch stripes, mind you!) sleeveless 20s style bathing suit. Hahaha!  Now, I don’t know where that came from. LOL.

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The Crystal

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I took a nap late afternoon and I held an apophylite crystal while doing so, so that I could connect with the higher realms while sleeping and, maybe, they could give me a message.

So, I did have a dream and it was rather weird.

I was in an unfamiliar place which was apparently our house.  There was fighting outside, armed men, but our house was unaffected.  There were two people, a man and a woman — or a woman and child — I can’t remember — who sought shelter by the front steps leading to the main door.  I remember checking them out and telling them that they could not come in as I did not know them.

Then when I went inside the house, it was like the first time that I saw it.  There were beddings laid out in the living room and my sisters were there. It was like a sleepover but in our living room.  I remember that one of the bedbags was red.  Anyway, they were making themselves comfortable and lounging around.  Then I looked around the house and I said, “Wow, this house is really small.” And I was saying that in the context of our other houses that we’ve lived in because it was smaller than any of those places.

Then I looked at the crystal I was holding which was really really big, at least in my dream.  The actual crystal I was holding was a little smaller than a marshmallow, the ones you put on the end of a skewer when going camping, but in my dream, you’d need to put both your palms together to hold it.

In any case, I was looking at it, and then it broke up! The terminated point of the crystal got dislodged from the body.  And the rest of the body, when I looked at it, was a cloudy gray.  It wasn’t the crystal itself but sort of like a covering — wait, let me think how I can describe this accurately — imagine Cling-wrap but make it matte and gray and it was covering the crystal.  And then, as I tried to remove the wrap, the crystal disintegrated into little pieces.

I thought at first that this was just residual images of my subconscious since before I slept, I did a reading for my twin and asked him how his birthday was overall (we are in separation).  And in my reading, one of the cards was the High Priestess, clarified by an old woman in crutches and sterility (mountain).  And I read that as he didn’t have access to his Intuition or something like that. But moments after waking, Spirit nudged me and said that it just meant that I was the High Priestess and since I didn’t move or greet him, that’s why it turned up. That made sense.

I still don’t get the house and the crystal breaking up and turning gray.

 

The Bride

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I had a somewhat troubling dream last night. I dreamt that my sister (who is actually married) got married again and I wasn’t invited to the wedding. And this was when all this time, I had been interacting with her and she didn’t even think to mention it.

When I found out — I actually don’t know how I found out in my dream, but I did  — scenes from the real wedding that I missed flashed back and I was taken to that timeline.  It was as if I was there. It was a photoshoot and my sister was in her wedding dress, and I don’t know why that in my dream it was an interactive flashback because I went back to it, but was also in it and during that time I was able to ask my sister why I wasn’t invited.  She told me that she couldn’t tell me because daddy told her not to. So they all kept it from me.

Needless to say, I woke up feeling bad about that. I probably have to ask Linamarie what it means.

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Came back from my vacay in Coron (a.k.a. Paradise) and it was wonderful.  Another wish granted which I am truly, truly grateful for.  You see, I did want a vacation because ever since I had started doing “mission work”, my weekends have been working weekends as well. If I wasn’t doing real life work and mission, it was because I was purging from an energy download and was too physically exhausted or ill to do anything else but take a back seat.

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So I was just wishing for it, and the next thing I know, my cousin’s coming over, and I get to be tour guide and it’s basically all-expenses paid. At least, the bulk of it was paid for — the flight and the awesome hotel by the Bayside. Most meals were paid for too, and all I had to spring for was the tour which really wasn’t much because it included a lunch buffet.

I was wondering how I would prepare myself for this major eclipse but it seemed as though the Universe got it covered.  For this Solar Eclipse in Pisces — I found myself surrounded by the most beautiful and pristine water and islands with the sun shining down on me. I was able to ground in the sand, breathe in nature, swim up close with the fishies, and feel the sun on my skin and the wind in my hair.

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But what of the chaotic energies that everyone’s been feeling? As I was able to check my Facebook from time to time, I did get the sense that everyone was in a “Tower” moment, that the energies were descending on them real hard resulting in challenging moments of purging, mostly physical and emotional.

Well, that didn’t escape me either.  The Universe saw to that as well.  Like I said, every time there’s an energetic download, my body goes haywire and that happened on this trip too.

First, I knew I was going to get my period right smack in the middle of this trip.  Now, my periods are debilitating and I often skip work because there’s nothing much I can do when it hits me except lay down in bed wishing the cramps to go away. I was only wishing and praying that it could be delayed a day or two so that I could enjoy the swimming without being hounded by sharks because of the scent of blood. My prayers were granted.  But when swimming was over and it was time for my monthly visit, it came with a vengeance.

Second, while I totally expected to deal with that, what I didn’t expect was this stomach purge. Scientifically, I would attribute it to gulping down massive amounts of brackish water in Kayangin Lake. (I thought it was fine since just the “freshwater” part stuck to my brain and I totally forgot that it wasn’t “fresh” but “brackish”) Intuitively though, I knew that this is the Universe’s way of getting me to purge.

And, boy, did I purge! It’s been going on for five days now.  I actually thought I got a parasite because my cousin kept bringing up the show “Monsters Inside Me” which I also watch and got me paranoid.  It was weird though.  Here I was, having one of the toughest stomachs around, meaning I could eat street food, drink tepid water, etc. etc. without balking, and instead of these fragile stomached tourists getting sick, it’s me that gets hit. What gives, eh?

By the third day, my doctor sister tells me to get a stool exam because I’m just gushing the stuff and not eating anything solid.  Turns out it isn’t a parasite, but it is bacteria.  Lots of it.  It kind of makes me queasy thinking I was swimming in a pool of bacteria though. I mean, if someone with an open wound was swimming there, what would happen to them?

Anyway, I haven’t been eating and whatever I’ve eaten during “feasting with the tourists” has now been eliminated (sorry for the pun). But I get it.  I needed that because now I can actually feel my light body. It’s like it’s superimposed on me and not densely stuck to my 3D physical body. So the 5D part of it is awesome; but I’m still reeling from the 3D part of it.  My stomach still feels queasy and I don’t feel that confident eating solid food. Of course, I did have cake, haha.

Anyway, that’s my update.   I’m supposed to do weekly readings tonight, but I’m still tired. I don’t know.  Let’s see. 🙂

 

 

Half Asleep

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I took a nap today since I got drained with excitement at having a new puppy.  I named her “Ash”, short for Ashtatara, the Atlantean Goddess who holds the Golden Codes.

Anyway, my dream was weird. I fell asleep holding my Tibetan Quartz crystals and I had to wake myself up within my dream in order to truly wake up.  Yes, some part of my brain had to do the countdown to wake up. Honestly, it felt like I was in another timeline, something parallel to this one.

In my dream, I woke up from a nap but couldn’t really open my eyes yet.  But I could see through my semi opened eyes somewhat.  I also realized that while I was sleeping (but in this scene I was in my real bed so this could have really happened while I was asleep but I still saw it happening), that the Butler went in my room rather quietly while I was asleep to sleep, not with me, but in the room with me.

Anyway,  back to the real dream — so I wake up and the Butler is there, although his clothes were different from when he snuck in. He started fixing the bedding and all that but his personality was different.  While very conciliatory and servile in real life, this time, he was whining and complaining about the task given.

Okay, whatever I remember of the dream is fading, so snippets in non-linear fashion:

I heard my dad talking to some guests downstairs with his usual boasting and all that.  He was lauding whatever achievement my doctor sister had. When I came to check him out, he was like human at first, then turned to spirit and when I turned to confront him, his spirit invaded the TV — and it was an old TV box.

Apparently, the place we all lived in was cramped and not big as it really is. I went into the bathroom which was really a water closet because it was cramped and tight and there was laundry strewn all over the place as though there were no other place to dry them.

I called to our maid and she came wearing what she did this morning, and she was explaining why things were that unkempt.

During this conversation, I could hear my Doc Sis presiding over a Courtroom, as though she was the Clerk of Court.  When I came to investigate, I realized that she was handpicked by my dad for the job to augment her income. But I also saw a lot of thank you cards from her patients who belonged to this big corporate group and were rich – so that was another line of income. So apart from her clinic hours, she had all these sidelines that were also bringing in money for her.

Then I went to my mom’s room to confront her and my mom’s room was very cramped and filled with junk food as though she were a mini convenience store.  There were some opened packets of junk food there and I took a bite of some and they were stale and not crispy anymore.

That’s when I realized that I didn’t want to be in this dream anymore and willed myself awake — yes, by counting down.  Weird.

 

Solstice Musings

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Had quite a day yesterday! While being plagued by ascension symptoms that left me hoarse, aching and with a fever that still wouldn’t break which let sleep elude me, I still made the 2 am Solstice Gateway Activation, did my last minute holiday shopping, had a Reading done by my regular reader, and had a Distance Reiki Healing done by Michael Kuhn.  That last one was a last minute decision since I did not even have the strength to self-heal.  I thought that it would be best that someone else healed me.

Okay, thoughts now:

Solstice Gateway Activation – the Diamond Codes have been anchored within us and into Gaia’s grid! I had very good imagery during the meditations, only hampered by the melancholia that I had been feeling the past few days.

Another twin participant and I discussed about Jen last night.  She said that she had asked several healers about Jen and that Jen wasn’t “of love and light”. Now, that’s a big accusation.  She said that she had asked her Higher Self, her Guide and AA Michael. I asked her what prompted her to ask and she said that it was because she felt something “off” while listening to the other activations.

Now, I have been listening to the other activations and they have been working for me. Each time I did an activation, some abundance of some sort would come or a grant of something I had been asking for. In fact, comparing the tenor of the conversation and the quality of participants in that particular group with the other Twin Flame groups out there, this one was of a higher caliber.  The participants were healers in their own right and they really didn’t advocate anything that wasn’t beneficial to the planet or to other twins’ personal growth.  So I really don’t know where that was coming from. She said she had asked this Haley on YouTube — DivineLight888 or something if Jen was “not of love and light” and she said that she was not.

Now, I don’t know the answer to that but it is troubling. I’m going to have to ask the cards later on.

Regular Reading with my Destiny Adviser – Glad this one pushed through because I had made the appointment two weeks in advance and he gave me the usual headache of something coming up and could we reschedule our reading?  Now, I’m sick of that bullshit because his rescheduling policies are in no way equitable.  You don’t get bumped first in line due to the delay but you have to wait for those other who were originally scheduled AFTER you until he gets to you.  What the fuck, right?

Anyway, I stood my ground and said he should have made arrangements regarding that other engagement he wanted to go to taking into consideration the appointments he had already made. So despite being sick like a dog, I braved the mall, getting there before opening hours to avoid the hellish parking situation.

In essence, he said that my melancholia and my distraught physical condition was due to the stress of being in separation from my twin. My twin would be depressed this Christmas and New Year and spend it alone.  He’s kind of in hermit mode contemplating and meditating on the new shift he’s about to make in our lives. The Tower card came up several times, similar to my reading of the situation earlier this morning — I had done a reading right after the Solstice Activation — but the three cards that kept repeating were the Wheel of Fortune, the Tower card and the Magician card.

I was totally depleted when I got home.  I was trying to get a masseuse to come over but since this is the holiday rush, everyone was booked.  I had to get a booking the next day (today).

The healing with Michael Kuhn was most surprising.  I actually didn’t know what to expect or what his process was.  I just called his number from my Magicjack and he seemed personable.  He asked me what my issues were so I told him. Then he told me to  say something which seemed like magic words, lol. No, I swear, after saying it, my energy immediately shifted like all the dark had been sucked out of me and even all the tiredness. I was able to connect with an aspect of my Higher Self in the 18th dimension. I could just feel the energy which manifested like what you feel in your gut when you’re in a free fall — well, like that, but happy. He was the one who told me that she was female because he could hear her giggling.  I couldn’t hear it yet but he said it will come in time.

Apparently, I’ve seen her before during my 5D trips to Lyra. She’s one of those who welcome me whenever I’m there.  Last I’d seen her was during the Galactic Reunion but she was behind one of the Elders and there were other Lyrans there. I have yet to meditate after that session but I would like to connect with her more.

Michael asked if I was open to a “technology transfer” so to speak — an attunement in exchange for an attunement. So we’re working on that at the moment.

Anyway, it was what happened AFTER the call as I tried to fall asleep that was interesting. If you remember that scene in the movie Limitless where all his synapses were firing, that seemed to be what was happening to me. All these scenes were just running on fast forward in my third eye, too fast for it to settle on any one scene.  The most awesome was when I woke up from this weird dream — the details of which I’ll tell you later — because it was a golden kaleidoscope of what I perceived to be like stained glass but with overwhelming gold spiraling towards me. It was pulsating, becoming more vibrant with each pulse I thought my third eye was going to get “burned”. I woke up shortly after that a bit disconcerted.

Okay, sidebar — re the weird dream.  I was in a garden with my sister and she was rather excited to show me her new pet which she had on a leash.  I couldn’t see it outright because the grass was rather high and it was moving through it.  When she raised it for me to see, all excited and gleeful, I was horrified to see that she has, for a pet, this alien tick parasite. WTF, right?

It was like a blood filled tick ready to burst, except that it was transparent (like a jellyfish) and inside it was a tree and something brown. At least, that’s what I could remember because I was horrified she was handing it to me.  I even said, “No way!” She was still so excited that she let it off leash and it “ran” through the grass.  She was trying to catch it, searching through the grass and ground and then when she surfaced, she had some carrots in her hand and she was shrieking, “I caught him!” And it was just so dumb, her mistaking the alien parasite for the carrots she had in her hand and her obvious glee at thinking she had retrieved her pet that that just made me crack up.  Yes, first time in my dream I got into that wheezing-i’m-going-to-burst-this-is-just-too-funny type of laughter.

Anyway, I tried to sleep again after that because I got woken up at around 4 in the morning.  BUT, my kundalini was rising at an alarming manner.  It felt like a whoosh of horniness and I started cumming and cumming multiple times over without even touching myself. It didn’t seem like it was ending anytime soon but I was badly in need of rest so…in a convoluted version of “dumbing myself down”, I went 3D to get a “physical orgasm” in an effort to totally tire myself enough to sleep.

Well, it worked.

If my Twin doesn’t step up soon, I just might have to get another “healing” session soon, lol.

Okay, I know what my dream means but I’m too drowsy right now to type more.  So maybe next time.

 

 

The Lost City of Mu

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I finally got the Paradise Activation Codes which I had bookmarked to get but totally forgot in the whirlwind of life and getting into mission. So now, embedded in my heart chakra is a quartz crystal pyramid with a rainbow inside which was the gift of the angelic to me as I was leaving the sacred chambers. I have yet to discern its full significance.

Later on in the day, after I had gotten client readings delivered, I took a nap while holding two Tibetan Quartz crystals and asked my angels to give me past life messages in my dream. And I did dream and it was a strange one.

I was back in my college campus and it was laid out the same as the real one.  I was walking through an unfamiliar path though, like a shortcut, and next thing I know, I was in a car which my uncle was driving.  There were other people with me in the car along with my long deceased dog, Mumu.  I called him Mu or Moo. He was truly my first love and oftentimes, I sensed that we were spiritually connected.  I don’t know who he was a reincarnation of though.

Anyway, the car was speeding through a winding mountain range.  You know, the kind of speed wherein you’d get thrown left and right because of the momentum. I think I was sort of yelling to my uncle to slow down, but then we hit a wall.  But this time, it was an areal drone shot and I saw big blocks of stone falling down on us. It looked more like the ruins of the pyramids if ever they toppled over, except that the hue of the stones/blocks were a distinct yellow clay.  I don’t know why it was that detailed but I saw that through the cloud of dust that was rising but also knew at the same time that we were all trapped inside the rubble.  It was me watching me.

I don’t know how we got out of it but we did.  In my dream, the storyline was that my parents weren’t around and my uncle took the kids (big kids, me included) on a trip to see a show. I remember stopping in front of the theatre/mall/whatever where the show was showing — ermergerd, it’s like I don’t know how to speak English, lol — but I think we veered further on to find parking.

We were looking for parking in a nearby gated village/subdivision when Moo escaped through the window presumably chasing after a cat.  But this village had plenty of angry stray dogs that were trying to get at him and I was very fearful for his safety.  I jumped out of the car trying to rescue him, and was scared myself because there were several mean white dogs — they looked like greyhounds — who were barking at me and warning me not to get close.

I got past those dogs.  I don’t remember how, but I was in the gated village and saw that Moo escaped all those mean angry dogs by diving into the nearby pool. He was dog paddling with his black hair strewn about in wet strands.  I scooped him out of the pool and as soon as he was back in my arms, everything seemed right again.

Next shot, we were back on campus and I guess I was hungry because I went to the canteen to look for food and saw a stall which was selling legs of ham. LOL.  That’s when the dream ended.

I still have to figure out what this means and I don’t have time right now to do that because it’s past midnight and tomorrow’s a workday.  I actually don’t know how to fit all I’m supposed to do or want to do in the time I have these days because most of my free time is spent in mission and helping other people.  And I like it.  I miss shopping though, but that’s always there anyway.

My ideal set-up now would be living with my twin in marriage, not having to work in a regular job, but doing mission work and earning double what I earn in my job.  Because I see potential in this.  It’s just kind of hard to do marketing and managing social media and doing the work at the same time.  And that’s on top of my real world work. And my social obligations.

Oh, I did a Distance Healing Reiki Session on my twin tonight.  Major kundalini rising every time I work on his root chakra.  I had to concentrate on getting the session done instead of just cumming.

Anyway, I best call it a night and hold on to the happy thought of “better than I could ever have imagined”.

ps. I realized that I wasn’t able to talk about Atlantis which I meant to — hence, the title. But that’s for next time.  My sleeping pill is kicking in and am way too drowsy.

 

 

 

 

Psychic Dreaming

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Last night, I was weighed down by a lot of things.  I’ve got hives again and this time around they were located in my right arm and smack in the middle of my back.  I suppose some exotic insect bit me again, but part of me suspects that it’s ascension symptoms, brought on by the Hunter’s Moon this October.

That was itching enough to be bothersome.  And even though I am still full go on my mission — I just installed video editing software and all that — the response on my trial video up on YouTube was short of dismal. I had one thumbs down and about 30 views.  Which brought me to thinking if I really did have “spiritual gifts” and if I should share them publicly.

I took Benadryl to help me sleep despite the itching, but it seemed like I didn’t need it.  I fell asleep while doing self-healing Reiki on myself. Woke up and tinkered around the computer for a bit and then fell back to sleep.  That’s when I had this strange dream.

I was in an illustrious and old campus, walking by a pathway beside one of the big buildings.  I stopped by a hawker’s stand.  There was this guy there giving out flyers and samples (not quite sure what the samples were for, but they looked like micro-cassette tapes).  He was a psychic and I was looking at him and his wares, curious if he was the real deal.

While I was doing this, things started happening to me.  I turned the golden knob of the grills nearby which revealed a secret passageway to the college down below.  And when I looked up at one of the life-sized statues that decorated the college (it looked like St. Francis of Assisi in my dream although I’m not sure), the statue suddenly turned its head to me. Jeepers, this was getting creepy.

When I turned down to look at the guy’s calling card which he had handed out earlier and which seemed to contain my initial logo for my website, the logo was spinning as though it had life.

That’s about all I remember, but I think there was much more.  I think Spirit was telling me that I did have psychic powers and not to doubt it because the “psychic hawker” by the wayside didn’t have an inkling that all those strange things were happening to me. Okay, okay, maybe I can help some folks out. I’m still not definitely backing down on this.  I have to birth it and let God.

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Telepathic Arguments with my Twin

I’m the one with Mars in Aries and since this Supermoon is in Aries, I’ve had to catch my temper many times the past couple of days.  Thank God that we’ve been given guidance about how this will affect us, so no bridges were burned so far.

On the other hand, I’ve felt my twin picking an argument with me several times now, telepathically though. I feel that he is lashing out at me, but I didn’t want to engage because I could tell that it is his own frustration and anger with himself that’s the source.  You know how men pick a fight so that women would break up with them?  That’s how it felt like.  I told him I was here to stay and that I wouldn’t go.  I suspect it is his own feelings of self-worth that are at play here.  He thinks that because of his failed relationships, his codependent way of coping with problems, that he’s no good for me. But I know that that argument is neither true nor valid.

So I’m letting him stew for a while.  I miss our loving connection but these are issues that have resurfaced for a purpose.  He needs to heal them and get rid of the guilt he associates with them.  All is forgiven.  I’m not pressuring him anymore to fit his healing and return with my timeline.  He just needs to do it.

In the meantime, I will continue to heal myself to help him heal.  He is, after all, my twin.  I’m just glad that I am in a place right now where I can tell what this is.  If I were any less enlightened, I would have responded likewise in anger and frustration.