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Solstice Musings


Had quite a day yesterday! While being plagued by ascension symptoms that left me hoarse, aching and with a fever that still wouldn’t break which let sleep elude me, I still made the 2 am Solstice Gateway Activation, did my last minute holiday shopping, had a Reading done by my regular reader, and had a Distance Reiki Healing done by Michael Kuhn.  That last one was a last minute decision since I did not even have the strength to self-heal.  I thought that it would be best that someone else healed me.

Okay, thoughts now:

Solstice Gateway Activation – the Diamond Codes have been anchored within us and into Gaia’s grid! I had very good imagery during the meditations, only hampered by the melancholia that I had been feeling the past few days.

Another twin participant and I discussed about Jen last night.  She said that she had asked several healers about Jen and that Jen wasn’t “of love and light”. Now, that’s a big accusation.  She said that she had asked her Higher Self, her Guide and AA Michael. I asked her what prompted her to ask and she said that it was because she felt something “off” while listening to the other activations.

Now, I have been listening to the other activations and they have been working for me. Each time I did an activation, some abundance of some sort would come or a grant of something I had been asking for. In fact, comparing the tenor of the conversation and the quality of participants in that particular group with the other Twin Flame groups out there, this one was of a higher caliber.  The participants were healers in their own right and they really didn’t advocate anything that wasn’t beneficial to the planet or to other twins’ personal growth.  So I really don’t know where that was coming from. She said she had asked this Haley on YouTube — DivineLight888 or something if Jen was “not of love and light” and she said that she was not.

Now, I don’t know the answer to that but it is troubling. I’m going to have to ask the cards later on.

Regular Reading with my Destiny Adviser – Glad this one pushed through because I had made the appointment two weeks in advance and he gave me the usual headache of something coming up and could we reschedule our reading?  Now, I’m sick of that bullshit because his rescheduling policies are in no way equitable.  You don’t get bumped first in line due to the delay but you have to wait for those other who were originally scheduled AFTER you until he gets to you.  What the fuck, right?

Anyway, I stood my ground and said he should have made arrangements regarding that other engagement he wanted to go to taking into consideration the appointments he had already made. So despite being sick like a dog, I braved the mall, getting there before opening hours to avoid the hellish parking situation.

In essence, he said that my melancholia and my distraught physical condition was due to the stress of being in separation from my twin. My twin would be depressed this Christmas and New Year and spend it alone.  He’s kind of in hermit mode contemplating and meditating on the new shift he’s about to make in our lives. The Tower card came up several times, similar to my reading of the situation earlier this morning — I had done a reading right after the Solstice Activation — but the three cards that kept repeating were the Wheel of Fortune, the Tower card and the Magician card.

I was totally depleted when I got home.  I was trying to get a masseuse to come over but since this is the holiday rush, everyone was booked.  I had to get a booking the next day (today).

The healing with Michael Kuhn was most surprising.  I actually didn’t know what to expect or what his process was.  I just called his number from my Magicjack and he seemed personable.  He asked me what my issues were so I told him. Then he told me to  say something which seemed like magic words, lol. No, I swear, after saying it, my energy immediately shifted like all the dark had been sucked out of me and even all the tiredness. I was able to connect with an aspect of my Higher Self in the 18th dimension. I could just feel the energy which manifested like what you feel in your gut when you’re in a free fall — well, like that, but happy. He was the one who told me that she was female because he could hear her giggling.  I couldn’t hear it yet but he said it will come in time.

Apparently, I’ve seen her before during my 5D trips to Lyra. She’s one of those who welcome me whenever I’m there.  Last I’d seen her was during the Galactic Reunion but she was behind one of the Elders and there were other Lyrans there. I have yet to meditate after that session but I would like to connect with her more.

Michael asked if I was open to a “technology transfer” so to speak — an attunement in exchange for an attunement. So we’re working on that at the moment.

Anyway, it was what happened AFTER the call as I tried to fall asleep that was interesting. If you remember that scene in the movie Limitless where all his synapses were firing, that seemed to be what was happening to me. All these scenes were just running on fast forward in my third eye, too fast for it to settle on any one scene.  The most awesome was when I woke up from this weird dream — the details of which I’ll tell you later — because it was a golden kaleidoscope of what I perceived to be like stained glass but with overwhelming gold spiraling towards me. It was pulsating, becoming more vibrant with each pulse I thought my third eye was going to get “burned”. I woke up shortly after that a bit disconcerted.

Okay, sidebar — re the weird dream.  I was in a garden with my sister and she was rather excited to show me her new pet which she had on a leash.  I couldn’t see it outright because the grass was rather high and it was moving through it.  When she raised it for me to see, all excited and gleeful, I was horrified to see that she has, for a pet, this alien tick parasite. WTF, right?

It was like a blood filled tick ready to burst, except that it was transparent (like a jellyfish) and inside it was a tree and something brown. At least, that’s what I could remember because I was horrified she was handing it to me.  I even said, “No way!” She was still so excited that she let it off leash and it “ran” through the grass.  She was trying to catch it, searching through the grass and ground and then when she surfaced, she had some carrots in her hand and she was shrieking, “I caught him!” And it was just so dumb, her mistaking the alien parasite for the carrots she had in her hand and her obvious glee at thinking she had retrieved her pet that that just made me crack up.  Yes, first time in my dream I got into that wheezing-i’m-going-to-burst-this-is-just-too-funny type of laughter.

Anyway, I tried to sleep again after that because I got woken up at around 4 in the morning.  BUT, my kundalini was rising at an alarming manner.  It felt like a whoosh of horniness and I started cumming and cumming multiple times over without even touching myself. It didn’t seem like it was ending anytime soon but I was badly in need of rest so…in a convoluted version of “dumbing myself down”, I went 3D to get a “physical orgasm” in an effort to totally tire myself enough to sleep.

Well, it worked.

If my Twin doesn’t step up soon, I just might have to get another “healing” session soon, lol.

Okay, I know what my dream means but I’m too drowsy right now to type more.  So maybe next time.




Healing and More


What you missed in the last episode:  Triggered by a Twin Flame friend.

Okay, just a quick update on that one. What I did was to do Reiki on myself and incorporate the healing codes for forgiveness, betrayal, to clear negativity and for a windfall. And, indeed, I felt a this heaviness lift from me. The “windfall” came too because while I was doing it, a text came in.  I ignored it at that time because it was interrupting my session, but when I read it, it was confirmation that the money I needed to support my application was on its way.

So I did open my heart again to my TF friend. Early this morning, we took part in a prerequisite healing session for our upcoming Light Language Workshop course. That was at 1:30am, my time, and I wasn’t surprised that I was having technical glitches right before it. Seriously, it’s like there’s an entity or what that doesn’t want me to come into my full power, and I kind of sensed that I think which is why I loaded up on my mobile wifi devices. I was looking forward to the video conference call because I was on pretty decent Fiber Internet but, no, today, of all days, it goes down for the first time ever. Not even a slowdown in bandwidth; it totally didn’t connect. Good thing, redundancy measures were in place.

Anyway, onto the healing proper.  There was just three of us. My TF friend and this other woman. For the Twins in the group, most of the stuff we had to clear were past life issues.  My TF friend — dangit, I have to give her a name, at some point, ya know? — was an elder in a tribal village and was the repository of wisdom of that village.  Her soul shock came when the Annunaki obliterated her whole village, killing all the women and children, and her too.

As for me, one of my biggest soul traumas came from these people who double-crossed me.  They took my son from me and made me sign a contract that turned over my land and power, and whatever else, making me believe that if I did that — which I did — my son would be back safely in my arms.  But the double crossing motherfuckers still killed him anyway.

And this resonates with me.  Some readers have told me before that I’d already lost a child which didn’t make sense at the time since I’ve never been pregnant in this lifetime.  Then, it also explains why I’ve been writing poems about my unborn child or something like that when I was younger.

So that voidable contract has been ripped to shreds and burned. It wasn’t my fault he died. I think I will still have to continue forgiving myself for that.

Another thing that was mentioned in regards to me was that some of my soul fragments have been taken by a man every time we’ve engaged in sexual intercourse.  Now, I’m not quite clear if that happened in a past life or in this one.  If it was in this one, it’s kind of difficult to pin the whodunnit part down since I’ve had that woman whore phase in my life.

There was another thing too.  At one point in time, the back of my head was hurting. They said that there was a big ass stick speared through my Pineal Gland from my back which was interfering with me accessing my Third Eye and all that.  The stake went out through my back. So everyone in the group helped in  removing that and I did feel a clearing after.  It’s like when you take a piece of barbecue out of the skewer and there’s hole in a that piece of meat.

Anyway, Chris of Merakilight, already told me before that I’d been abducted by aliens as a child and this was why I have difficulty accessing memories.  I feel that there’s a program installed for me to continually not remember my life experiences. I meant to bring that up during the healing session but the entire session was distracted by the other participant who had scores of other issues to be healed. For discussion’s sake, let’s call her Doodie.

So, during introductions, Doodie says that she’s taken all sort of healing modality certifications, whatever was out there.  For the RMT certification that both me and my TF friend have, she probably has 5 more. BUT, despite that, she had difficulty healing herself and, intuitively, I felt that all her life she has been plagued with disempowerment, loneliness and unhappiness. It’s like she’s been trying to hard to ascend that she’s practically latched onto the new age bandwagon, but there’s this anchor keeping her to where she’s stuck. I’m intuiting it’s because she’s continually stuck on the external. Possibly TF friend and I have advanced rapidly precisely because we are twin flames.

Many times during the session I have tried to stifle blurting out in laughter because, much as I empathize with her condition, her heavy breathing through the microphone was making me crack up and snapping me out of the “zone” I was in.

Anyway, at some point during the session, we were asked to visualize our future selves, fully empowered and in full possession of our gifts.  I saw myself clearly, and I was beautiful, sexy, tangibly abundant and, best of all, happy with my Twin Flame by my side. And you bet your ass I merged with “her”. That vision of her/me + the words of Starsoul Tarot — better than you ever imagined — echoing in the background, that was just pure awesomeness. I know there’s a better word for it, but just add superlatives to those in your head, lol.

And I’m going to end this on that note, a decidedly high one. 🙂



Love, Love, Love


My successful distance reiki healing session last night inspired me to do one on my twin.  Of course, I asked his Guardian Angel to give it to him when he’s most ready.

Honestly, I was expecting to feel a lot of heartbreak, pain and all that, but, surprisingly, all I felt was LOVE, overwhelming love at times, especially when I laid my hands on his Higher Heart and Heart Chakra. It felt like he was in me and I was in him.  I can’t explain it. And when my hands wandered to his base chakra, I felt his kundalini rising until it brought me to a point of ecstasy. And I thought… Heaven on Earth.

I saw her too, the karmic.  Sometime when I was working on his head.  So he’s thinking about her. I don’t get that part so much because — how do I explain it?  If, during the other reiki sessions, I was the healer; in this one, I was as much the healee as the healer. And even now, i’m still basking in the glow of love. Wonderful.


Reiki Attunements


Early this morning, I got my attunements for the four degrees of Usui Reiki Ryoho, the 1st to 10th degree attunements in Ascension Reiki and attunements in Reiju Reiki.

I didn’t feel a surge of energy like other people would relate when talking about their first attunement experience, but I think I have an explanation for this. I’ve already been purging and undergoing detox the past couple of weeks. And as a blue ray twin flame and starseed, I’ve already been upgraded to a crystal matrix to hander higher frequency energies and downloads to anchor in Gaia.  These are the divine rays and energies that I used to heal with prior to getting attuned in Reiki.

Instead what I got was a denser milky energy — gold, orange and irridescent white — flowing through me. I have a feeling that although this energy is basically “made of the same stuff”, it takes on a form peculiar to the user’s soul identity — in my case Lyran.  So the reiki practitioner imprints his/her own soul signature in the energy too.

Oh, before that, I could see my chakra wheels spinning, getting ready for the “energy download”, so to speak.  Since I had already recently cleared my chakras, there wasn’t much blockage for the energy to flow.  And after a bit o time meditating, I got this vision of a multicolored  crystal/gemstone, with metallic blue, green and hints of violet that flashed across my mind.

I wasn’t familiar with the crystal/gemstone so I looked it up afterwards.  Turns out that what was shown to me in my vision was a Rainbow/Flame Aura Quartz Crystal. It looked like this, but with more vibrant blues and greens.



I looked up its properties and this is what I got:

Rainbow Aura Quartz – Clear Quartz bonded with Gold and Titanium; produces vivid multi-colored metallic crystals. Rainbow Aura activates all the energy centers in the body, clearing a path for the Life Force to manifest throughout the subtle bodies, bringing in a vibrant energy and zest for life. It is particularly supportive for those in dysfunctional relationships, by letting one see what lies ahead and helping to release negative emotions such as resentment or grief. It brings deep insights into one’s relationships at all levels, and aids letting go of karmic ties that may be hindering relationships in the current life. This transformed relationship then becomes vital and harmonious. Rainbow Aura is a master healer for any condition, and is highly beneficial in multidimensional cellular memory healing. It is an efficient receptor for programming and bringing the body into balance. [Hall, 230-231][Hall En, 144]

Flame Aura Quartz – Clear Quartz bonded with Titanium and Niobium; produces very deep blue, violet and golden metallic crystals; also called Titanium Aura Quartz. This crystal is excellent for use in spiritual initiations and rituals, and for deepening meditation and spiritual attunement. It creates a multi-dimensional energy shift, drawing kundalini energy up the spine and through the subtle bodies, adjusting its effect to provide what each soul needs for evolution. It may also be used during meditation to promoted contact with ancient Greek civilizations. Flame Aura stimulates the Third Eye and Higher Crown Chakras, enhancing focus and increasing the ability to “read” people at an energetic and subtle level and to understand the information that was communicated. It is a beneficial stone for creating and maintaining a state of homeostasis within the physical and emotional bodies, and may be useful in the treatment of diabetes, cellular and bone cancers, Multiple Sclerosis, and in stimulating the immune system of AIDS patients.

How amazing is that? It’s like I got the vision when the download was finished. And what amazes me even more is that most of the time, I don’t know what it means until my human brain decodes the message of Spirit.

After the attunements, I felt so clear.  No, let me be more precise — I felt like a clear column, like a highway free of traffic and that I could channel energy make it pass through me and ground it to Gaia.

I hope I get to help a lot of people through Reiki.

Random Thoughts


Can’t think of a better title because I don’t know how this entry will turn out.  I just wanted to write, to connect with something, someone, somewhere out there. So bear with me. Or skip this all together. 🙂 You have been warned.


On the Twin Flame Community Drama – well, that’s winding down. I suppose folks got appalled that a lot were coming out of the woodwork with similar experiences with IamAngelics.Net and they thought that the negativity would shatter the zen, so to speak.  They even “disbanded” that wrongly spelled group (which I am thankful for because the wrong spelling was grating) and created a new one.

My thoughts on this?  Light cannot exist without dark. I don’t think it’s fair to dismiss another twin’s experience if only because it destroys the “hugbox” experience for you.  What we resist, persists.  Not looking at it doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.  And, corollarily, just like what they preach in the TF community, just because one hasn’t come into physical union yet, doesn’t mean that one won’t.  It’s part of the Christos Energy, the Alpha and Omega, both ends of the spectrum, embraced.  And I just honestly think that some twins are just looking for guidance (hey, this journey didn’t come with a manual!) and is why they are bringing it up.


#iamatwinflame  — so I joined the new group and am still feeling my way through.  I am really looking for forum for discussion about this journey, but if it only evolves into a “hugbox” full of positivity memes, then at least I’ll know that it is that.

Honestly, I don’t even know if I rightfully belong there.  What if M isn’t really my twin? What if I’m not a twin? I am a confirmed Starseed Indigo Lightworker, that much I know, but the twin part, I was merely guided to it.  And yes, if you backread my blog, you’ll see me recounting all those times when I asked Spirit if I was a twin flame and his/her answer, but still, you know? In any case, if it’s something like “gender” in the 3D, then I am identifying as a twin flame haha. My inchoate book title just got a bit longer — “The Little Lost Starseed and Reluctant Twin Flame” 🙂

I figured, I’ll find out the real answer to that either when I come into union with my twin in this lifetime OR when my time is up on this Earth.  In any case, if I have been mistakenly sending unconditional love to my false twin, that unconditional love has to have been sent somewhere and it would also do nothing but good. I might have wasted my time denouncing other experiences with someone else in this physical incarnation (status as of now, but I may get bored a couple of years later being alone and celibate and just hook up with someone else who doesn’t mind not being the love of my life — just keeping it real), but it was still my choice.


Houston, We Have a Problem – I googled my TF this afternoon.  That was after one of my coworkers introduced me to a deep web search and I got curious what would turn up for him.  Well, nothing on that engine, so I went back to good old Google.  Still, nothing that I hadn’t seen before except for the fact that he had plumbing work done on his house back in 2014. (The site listed remodelling permits).

I even texted him today only because some of the readings said that the Divine Feminine was wearing a mask and to tell him what you truly feel and to reach out and not be afraid to be rejected.  As usual, no response.

So, for all intents and purposes, he might as well have fallen off the planet.  So what do I make of this soul yearning that I have for him?  My soul knows he is my twin as certain as I know that there is a God or that the sun will rise in the East tomorrow. I know I sound like I’m contradicting myself given what I’ve written above, but just look at it as the sound of one hand clapping.


Nervousness. — I am nervous what will happen in my 3D life in the days to come.  My mom’s birthday party is coming up and that might mean another ambush in public by my family which I can’t evade really because it’s going to be held at our house which I don’t really know if it will be my soon-former-residence.  I’m just taking my “courage shot” from the thought that Spirit will have my back, however this turns out.  Pure trust because I have nothing else to rely on.  I just hope my prayers are heard.

On the other hand, I just found out (by accident, again because my mom mistakenly messaged my sister in a group chat with my sister’s other friends) — that my sister has a criminal case.  She’s a nurse in Halifax.  I’m guessing something along the lines of Criminal Negligence, but the fact that my sister wouldn’t give details of it even to my mom makes me think it might be something more.

What is even more worrisome is that she told my mom that she’ll tell them the entire story “when they come to Canada” which is implying that it could be very soon, which, of course, will fuck up my balance again. And it’s times like these that I wished I could have just not volunteered  for this mission.


Reiki Attunements — On the other hand, I am seriously looking forward to being attuned in Usui Reiki, Ascension Reiki and Reiju Reiki! I think it will be another avenue to use and share my divine gifts. I really do want to help other people and pets heal and do life coaching.  I’ve already been healing others when I can but it is an unstructured sort of pranic healing with the Divine Rays and the Healing Codes. With that, you have to direct the energy.  Anyway, I’m pretty excited about that.

So that’s the report for tonight, folks.  Hope I have better news in the next few days. Namaste.