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Why the Void?


I’ve been crying.  On and off, not for anything in particular, but just purging and releasing.  I’m thinking that maybe it’s hormones since it’s shark week for me, but maybe it’s also because the things I’ve been rushing to accomplish for my application are more or less in place, just a couple of things to polish it off and I can “not think about it” for a while.

If you read the entry before this, I was wondering why the silence from all fronts.  It kind of seemed like a conspiracy.  Even my Destiny Adviser wasn’t available, and I took it as a sign that this was something I had to navigate through myself.

I did a reading last night for me and my twin.  He loves me, is looking towards me, but is still navigating through some issues of heartbreak.  He’s having challenges with the ex, probably with regard to divorce matters.  On the other hand, my column was pretty accurate — Eight of Swords, meaning I can’t see past anything (which is what I’ve been writing about haha), Five of Wands, Nine of Swords — but I did find it interesting that the underlying energy of the spread was the Sun.  As though it was telling us that this was the darkness before the breaking of the dawn.  For his energy towards me, he got the Twin Flame card.  For mine towards him, the Ace of Pentacles, manifestation.

I also got that he was asking me to hold on as he was making the choices he needed to make.  When I asked what he was deciding about me, the first option was union, fast and swift, (Alchemist + Tower), while the second option was status quo (Four of Swords + Three of Wands).  For what he feels regarding those two options, for the first option, it was Ace of Swords, while the second option was Ten of Swords.  What that’s telling me is that he feels that it will pain him more for us to be in continued separation.

Last, I asked what his plans were for me — and I loved the answer that came up, which included the King of Cups, Knight of Cups and Page of Cups, Eight of Pentacles and Two of Cups.  My twin plans to love me.  And I ended the reading on that happy note.

This morning, just as I was crossing the threshhold from sleep to wakefullness, I was given the message that physical union, sacred sex will be necessary to complete both our healing because each of us holds a key. I was given a vision of our kundalinis rising and spiraling upwards in various colors as they passed through our chakras and then bursting outwards to envelope the both of us and to resonate that kind of energy to the Universe.  We are healing on our own now, but will need each other to complete that phase and start something new.

I got more enlightenment about what I’ve been going through as I fired up my computer.  This one was from Naglaa Elshamy, who channels Spirit from twin flames and others.  This was her message today:

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Very grateful to have received that message which resonates strongly with me.  Issues from long ago have been cropping up like a rerun of a tv show which I didn’t want to watch.  I’ve been feeling like I’ve been retaking a test except that this time around, I know how to answer the questions already.

In another video I watched, it was explained that the twin needed this “time out” because there will be accelerated movement after that; that it will be slower if he doesn’t take this time out.

I just hope that this upgrade will get done soon. Take care, everyone.


Is He Really My Twin?


That’s the question I’ve been asking my Higher Self and Spiritual Team for the past, maybe 48 hours.

It became more pressing to find the answers out when Allison Lessard mentioned in one of her latest videos that there have been clients who have been asking the same question, and she had to tell them, no, he’s not your twin but your karmic soulmate. And she went on to say that they spent 10, 20 years or so waiting and hoping for their twin, but in reality, all they were doing was being stuck in the same place, ditching their date with destiny and progress.

Was I one of those folks?  Out of the myriad of psychics who gave a thumbs up on my relationship with him, only three were skeptical and said no, we wouldn’t end up together.  One of those, in fact, was the one who had enlightened me on my Starseed origins and led me onto this spiritual path that I’m on now.  Ever since she told me that, however, I never went back to her.

However, since then, I have petitioned the Karmic Board to amend our soul contracts so that we would be together in this lifetime.  I’ve done this with the permission of his Higher Self who joined me in petitioning, and we’ve been granted dispensation.  Of course, this only happened after accomplishing what seemed like the Labours of Hercules, including retrieving the etheric counterparts of his soul fragments across time and space.

I’ve come to a point where I don’t seek out psychics anymore to answer that question, but I trust in the answers that my Higher Self gives me.  If someone else told me again that I was on a fool’s errand, I think I would fall apart.  I would be gambling my fragility and the delicate strands that hold me together on the opinion of someone whom I wasn’t sure if they were misguided or not.  In the end, I’ve chosen to take a gamble on my Higher Self and the messages they send me, when they choose to send me such.  After all, if at the end of my earthly life, during the time of reckoning, I find out that I was wrong on all counts and I ended up having lived a life not lived (yes, that sounds confusing, but you know what I mean), then I will either be sent back to start over and, at the very least, I’ll be remembering nothing until I am awakened once again. Even though the prospect of going through birthing pains prior to being enlightened isn’t all that enticing, what can I do?

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Anyway, this morning, before leaving the house for work, I asked again for an answer to my question.  As soon as I got into my car, his “love song” for me came on the radio — “Where My Love Goes”.  That made me happy, but, of course, I still had to ask.  It wasn’t a responsive answer, never mind that I liked it anyway.  Then, the numbers started appearing.  33, 55, 11, with the 33s repeatedly appearing, always in pairs.  They were in car plates, signages, billboards — double numbers until I got to the office.

During the drive home, after waiting out the downpour in a cafe, I felt the need for confirmation.  I asked again for a sign, a message, to tell me that I was on the right path.  As soon as I turned on the radio, upon leaving the parking area, guess what song was playing again?  Of course, since it was climbing up the charts, that made me skeptical.  Maybe I just had an awesome sense of timing, but with that song, I “heard” him telling me to be careful on the drive home because the roads were wet and slippery.

The paired numbers kept coming up again.  88, 77, 66, 55, 44, 33, 22, 11 – mostly in plates, in cab numbers.  They were there almost everywhere I looked.  Was this just coincidence?  Or were they telling me that we were actually a pair? That was my question just as I braked for the stoplight in a major intersection.  And just right then, a motorcycle eased in front of me with the plates — ND 282282. ND for “And” — then the number 2 for pair, 8 would be the symbol for twin flames upright, and the number 22 –

“Angel Number 22 encourages you to find this sense of balance and inner harmony in order to achieve a higher level of existence. By focusing on your personal needs, you can also get a greater understanding of your purpose. Guardian angels use these messages to provide us with the ability to find fulfillment through the actualization of our dreams.

If you are able to identify your journey, then you should also trust your instincts in pursuing your destiny. Angel Number 22 urges you to use your own judgment in order to reach these goals. Through proper personal harmony, you are more apt to be successful in your life.

Number 22 in numerology suggests that you stand strong in your personal beliefs and faith. If you put out positive and confident energy, you will be more open to the opportunities that will be presented to you.”

Then it ends with number 2 again, then 8, the symbol for twin flames.  The plate was actually a palindrome – 282 282 282 282 282 282 , ad infinitum, just like the eternal bond of twin flames.  I was being nudged with the answers again — a pair, twins, twin flames.

But because I’m always second guessing, I asked for confirmation, if what I had decoded in the blink of an eye — remember I was driving — was correct.  And they, too, had a quick answer — in my peripheral vision, a cab caught my eye because it swerved to merge lanes.  Its plate number — 118.  11 — the number of twins, again, the 8, its symbol.


And because I’m a pesky intuitive (and I’m glad that my guides aren’t allowed to be exasperated with me), I still asked, Really?

Another cab caught my eye.  The cab’s number — 01.  Which I took to mean that we were one.  Hmmm, okay.

To reinforce, the number pairs kept popping up all the way home.  Who knows, maybe they’re very common and I’m just noticing it now.  So, do you think I have my answer?

And just as I revved up You Tube when I got home, I decided to continue watching a video I paused because I had to leave to go home.  It started where I had left off, and when I played it, the first words said was “So listen to the signs and messages that your guides are giving you.”  There was more, but I can’t remember right now.  I just thought that it was really creepy.  Oh! I remember now, she said something like, “You will question and you will doubt because now, you still cannot see” — it come to fruition or something like that, but that it was there and that we have to continue the journey and the path.


And wow, when they answer a question, they really do answer the question! What do you think? I feel that if I ask one more time, I might get an etheric bonk on the head for being so pesky, lol.


Crocodile Tears


It’s been a while since I’ve asked my guides for guidance through my dreams.   First of all, I’ve been busy with work.  Secondly, even though I’ve had dreams with messages, I couldn’t find time to jot them down here.

I’ve since had another cake dream, this time, more opulent because I didn’t only buy a slice like the last time.  I was in a buffet where they were serving my favorite strawberry shortcake for dessert.  It had pink whipped cream frosting on it and whole strawberries and it was delicious.  Best of all, even if I ate some, there were still lots more to be had.

But I already know the meaning of cakes, so I wouldn’t be able to tell if I dreamt it up because I knew the meaning of it already and wanted that to be the outcome/answer to my question or if it was really the answer.

Anyway, this time, I asked my guides a question before I went to bed.  I asked if M and I would get married this year.  Then this is what I dreamt:

I was in a travelling bus with one of my good friends.  She was asking me about something and, in response, I pulled out a clear plastic bag with a dried up crocodile head.  I wasn’t scared of it, and in my dream, it looked like a dehydrated fruit or, more accurately, dried fish that you could eat.  I told my friend that they tasted delicious and she seemed incredulous. That’s when I told her that I had lots more, and pulled out other bags with dead baby crocodile heads.

There was a scene where the bus stopped by the house of these former owners of the ISP (Internet Service Provider) that I used to patronize.  In my dream, it seemed like a decade passed since I last saw them, and I was surprised as well that that was our destination.  We were supposed to tour their house or something.  I don’t remember much about that dream segment except that we were talking about Virtual Asia.  Users fondly called it Vasia (Vah-sha) then, but in my dream, the owners pronounced it Vey-sha, which is, I suppose, is how it’s really supposed to be pronounced since it’s a shortened form of V and Asia. The funny thing is that I’ve never thought it odd, the way we pronounced it before, when all this time, we had it wrong.

Great Scott, subconscious.  You tell me that nearly two decades later?!?

I woke up rather bewildered and went on to try to decode my dream.  My first instinct was to get apprehensive since crocodiles are worlds away from having sweet dreams of cake, and considering the importance of my question, I was nervous that it might mean a no.  Crocodiles usually means danger or deceit, or like the title of my post implies, that someone’s faking it with you and lying for sympathy.

Truth to tell, I’ve had issues with everyone lying to me lately.  I’ve been disappointed about those people who did, but I haven’t made a big deal out of it because I’m still trying to figure out if maybe I’ve just become more adroit at spotting lies/liars because I’m more intuitive now or if they’ve been liars all along and I was so clueless that I didn’t notice.  The possibility that they’ve been like that all this time is the only thing that’s keeping my disappointment at bay.

Anyway, I think it’s a positive dream.  For one thing, I wasn’t scared of the dead decapitated baby crocs.  I even said in my dream that they were delicious, lol.

Also, my dream dictionary search has lead me to this:  Dreaming of dead crocodiles means extreme success beyond anything you can imagine.  And if that’s what it means, then pulling out more dead decapitated baby crocs bodes even better for me, right?

That’s when I stopped analyzing my dream and decided that my guides have indeed answered me.  They honored my request too and made sure that I wouldn’t doubt that the answer came from my subconscious since I have never dreamed of crocs before, didn’t come across one in the media recently.

Even the friend that was with me on the bus has some significance.  That girl, many years ago when I was much troubled and at a crossroads in my life, told me something that I’ve always held dear to my heart.  When I was plagued with uncertainty because I was moving to another country, giving up my career and everything to my name, including my social stature and whatnot, she told me that she wasn’t worried about me because I was like a cat.  I always landed on my feet.

I cherish those words to this day because they have given me courage when going through dark places.  And here she was, someone who purportedly wouldn’t be surprised if I got out of whatever skirmish I was in, and she was…incredulous.

That just gives so much credence to what the dead decapitated baby crocs mean in my dream.  And, again, I am awed at how my guides decided to answer this one.

Extreme success beyond anything I can imagine.

I sure do like the sound of that. 🙂  Thank you, Spirit Guides.


Let Them Have Cake


One of my readers suggested that I ask my guides what my civil wedding will be like.  So I did.

The first part of my dream, I don’t recollect much or understand.  I was talking to my sister who is currently plotting her escape from her abuser (her baby-daddy and live-in partner of 5 years), and she was telling me something and she mentioned that when she went back to check, she was surprised that my mom was dead already (knock wood).

Somewhere in the ether between wakefulness and sleep, I became aware of the import of what she said.  It upset me and I woke up trying to shake off being upset.

I went back to sleep and had another dream.

I don’t remember the first sequence, but I know it involved a couple, one of my best friends and her husband, and the color blue.  Then I knew we were in the US, in a new neighborhood.  I was with my other sister, the one supposed to get married this December and we came upon a neighborhood bakery, a small hole-in-the-wall-type one, and I was so happy they were selling cakes.  It was like the kind of bakery in the US where they’ve been there for ages and sell super delicious cakes.  I bought a slice and it cost $2.54, and I paid for it in coins.  The coins actually fell to the floor when I handed it to the baker and I told her that I had given her the exact change.  She collected it and said I gave the right amount.

My sister and I left the bakery and went to my mom’s apartment.  She had just come home from I don’t know where, but I had the feeling that she came from work and we were little kids again. (That’s in contrast to real life where she is retired).  We were telling her we found a bakery and that the cake just cost $2.54.

And that was it.

DREAM DICTIONARY:  Here are some of the relevant meanings to symbols in my dream:


Consider also the metaphor a “piece of cake” or some situation that is easy.

To dream that you are buying a cake suggests that you have accepted the rewards and recognition you are getting for your work. You are learning to be comfortable in the spotlight.

If cakes are present in your dreams, it is usually a positive sign about the people in your life and the values you hold dearest. While the cakes in your dreams can sometimes be a sign of overindulgence, they are generally positive and well-meaning.

In general viewing a cake in dream is considered as a good sign to bring in positive changes in life.

To dream that you are purchasing a cake means that you have taken the honor given to you respectfully. To see cake cutting in your dream signifies that you are going to have a pleasurable time with your loved ones.

Dreaming of cake surely signifies that your struggle has come to an end and you are finely going to taste the success.

Dreaming of sweet cakes, is gain for the laboring and a favorable opportunity for the enterprising. Those in love will prosper.

To see of buying a cake in your dream means that your achievements will reflect to your family and thanks to these successes, your financial problems within your family will finish.

To see a bakery in your dream signifies richness and success. Your future will be an enjoyable, pleasant and filled with satisfaction.

Dreaming of a bakery can symbolise fortune, success, and richer futures, but don’t take the dream too literally. The bakery of your dream will, after all, be filled with people, objects, and of course, the creations of the bakery itself– cake, bread, coffee, etc. So all those dream elements will play a role, too, in what your personal bakery dream means for you and how to interpret it.

That said, dreaming of a bakery for most people will be a pleasant dream and is indicative of good things.

To dream of a going to a bakery represents a decision to use someone else to make having a good time easier. Only wanting to enjoy success or pleasure without having to earn it all yourself. A sign that you might be spoiled by someone.

Anything to do with money may suggest worries about finance, or an intuition of good fortune.

Because we call loose money ‘change’ in English, sometimes the coins might represent change in your life – small changes.

To dream of gold, denotes great prosperity and much pleasure derived from sight-seeing and ocean voyages.

Coins: Generally mean blessings or opportunities we don’t count or recognize

Gold Coins: Material/physical wealth indicated


So did my guides answer me?

Yes.  I think my civil wedding will be an intimate but lavish affair.  People will know about it/hear about it, but very few will actually be invited.  I will be happy with its outcome and I was even told about how much it would cost.  We would even have enough money to pay for it.  Money will go to different suppliers, but in the end, we would have spent just enough.

That I showed my mom the cake after buying is means that she will be happy that my old burden and challenges, especially when it comes to finances, are gone.

My sister accompanying in the dream was because she is slated to have her church wedding December this year.  That’s why she went to the bakery as well, but I was the one who bought the cake so I’m going to have my civil wedding first.

I’m still upset about my “news of death” dream.  Maybe it’s just reflecting my sister’s worries or my own anxiety about her pending escape and her safety.  I’ll ask around what this may mean.  Hopefully, nothing really bad. Sigh.

But thank you, spirit guides, for answering my main question.  🙂