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W is for Worn Out and Westerworld


Okay, I just did a reading that I was supposed to put on YouTube for my channel when I just kept sneezing through the thing, lol. And during one of those sneezing bouts, I accidentally turned the audio off so that remains to be an unusable draft.  Boo.

I’m actually worn out.  From hosting the Halloween festivities at the office for 200 rowdy kids, to setting up my FB page (it’s up now so check it out and LIKE!) and just inviting folks to it, then getting some decent camera equipment and tarot cards to trying to edit videos and making the Opening and Closing Sequences, I’m just…. drained, depleted, and I badly need sleep and rest.

Aloha Pink Bella said to expect cold and flu symptoms due to the frequency upgrade and it looks like that’s what’s happened to me. I did the New Moon Ritual last night and cleansed and consecrated my new Tarot Cards too.  I got the Gilded Tarot, Legacy Tarot, and the Animal something deck.  I tried them out today but wasn’t too focused because I was looking for a way to film with my new camera and splice the audio into it.  That, together with post processing took up most of my day. Hmp.

Oh, and include the intermittent sneezing too.  I planned to get my Christmas list fixed, wrap some gifts I have, yadayadayada.  Jeez, who did I think I was? Superwoman?  In 5D, maybe, lol.

*** I just took a bathroom break after that paragraph, and guess what? I blew the lights out there too. That’s like the fourth bulb this week. Sheesh ***

So I haven’t connected with my Twin in a while. If he’s talking to me, I can’t hear him over the din.  In fact, I can’t even hear myself because I’m just zooming all over the place like Wily Coyote.

Maybe tomorrow I’ll just be quiet.

Oh, I was going to write about Westerworld too.  I just wanted to say that it would be awesome to have robots ala Westerworld.  Then we could all avoid getting into skirmishes with karmics that make us take a destiny detour while waiting for our Twin to manifest in real life.  Any love we give them would just be rerouted to our Twin because, technically, they’re just robots. And big walking vibrators that give off excellent conversation, so being sexually starved wouldn’t be a problem either.

Gosh, I really want one of those.  They’d make life less lonely.




Psychic Dreaming


Last night, I was weighed down by a lot of things.  I’ve got hives again and this time around they were located in my right arm and smack in the middle of my back.  I suppose some exotic insect bit me again, but part of me suspects that it’s ascension symptoms, brought on by the Hunter’s Moon this October.

That was itching enough to be bothersome.  And even though I am still full go on my mission — I just installed video editing software and all that — the response on my trial video up on YouTube was short of dismal. I had one thumbs down and about 30 views.  Which brought me to thinking if I really did have “spiritual gifts” and if I should share them publicly.

I took Benadryl to help me sleep despite the itching, but it seemed like I didn’t need it.  I fell asleep while doing self-healing Reiki on myself. Woke up and tinkered around the computer for a bit and then fell back to sleep.  That’s when I had this strange dream.

I was in an illustrious and old campus, walking by a pathway beside one of the big buildings.  I stopped by a hawker’s stand.  There was this guy there giving out flyers and samples (not quite sure what the samples were for, but they looked like micro-cassette tapes).  He was a psychic and I was looking at him and his wares, curious if he was the real deal.

While I was doing this, things started happening to me.  I turned the golden knob of the grills nearby which revealed a secret passageway to the college down below.  And when I looked up at one of the life-sized statues that decorated the college (it looked like St. Francis of Assisi in my dream although I’m not sure), the statue suddenly turned its head to me. Jeepers, this was getting creepy.

When I turned down to look at the guy’s calling card which he had handed out earlier and which seemed to contain my initial logo for my website, the logo was spinning as though it had life.

That’s about all I remember, but I think there was much more.  I think Spirit was telling me that I did have psychic powers and not to doubt it because the “psychic hawker” by the wayside didn’t have an inkling that all those strange things were happening to me. Okay, okay, maybe I can help some folks out. I’m still not definitely backing down on this.  I have to birth it and let God.


Telepathic Arguments with my Twin

I’m the one with Mars in Aries and since this Supermoon is in Aries, I’ve had to catch my temper many times the past couple of days.  Thank God that we’ve been given guidance about how this will affect us, so no bridges were burned so far.

On the other hand, I’ve felt my twin picking an argument with me several times now, telepathically though. I feel that he is lashing out at me, but I didn’t want to engage because I could tell that it is his own frustration and anger with himself that’s the source.  You know how men pick a fight so that women would break up with them?  That’s how it felt like.  I told him I was here to stay and that I wouldn’t go.  I suspect it is his own feelings of self-worth that are at play here.  He thinks that because of his failed relationships, his codependent way of coping with problems, that he’s no good for me. But I know that that argument is neither true nor valid.

So I’m letting him stew for a while.  I miss our loving connection but these are issues that have resurfaced for a purpose.  He needs to heal them and get rid of the guilt he associates with them.  All is forgiven.  I’m not pressuring him anymore to fit his healing and return with my timeline.  He just needs to do it.

In the meantime, I will continue to heal myself to help him heal.  He is, after all, my twin.  I’m just glad that I am in a place right now where I can tell what this is.  If I were any less enlightened, I would have responded likewise in anger and frustration.


Spiders Everywhere!


The past two days have resulted in miserable ascension symptoms for me.  That was after the 911 call Shamama Hunting Owl and Mystic Moon Woman made about getting off social media for three days and a light language transmission to bring us closer to our twins.

That day when I listened to the light language activation was also the 2nd day of my shark week.  I am usually debilitated during my second day, but together with ascension symptoms that had me purging from almost all my orifices (vomiting and diarrhea), this one had left me incapacitated.  I could hardly hold anything down and that resulted in a mostly liquid diet the whole day through.  It was the same the day after although I had no choice but to sit up and get to work because I had a deadline to beat.

The energies that I had to anchor were related to the Solar Plexus Chakra and that’s probably why I had digestive issues.

We were also told to ground ourselves during these intense energetic shifts, to help ourselves and our twins who would be rather confused (if still unawakened) during these times.  Of course, I did that.


In other matters, I’m getting divine inspiration for putting up my spiritual business.  My very first Reiki patient was my mom who did say that she felt the energy move through her, from the top of her head down to her feet.  She couldn’t remember much after that because she was snoring deeply throughout the rest of the session.

My pregnant cousin was my next patient — oh, I’m not counting the Reiki I give my pets okay? But they’ve been patients too.  We did it at the office because everyone else had left save for one other person who stood guard at the reception desk for any official business that may come in. The strange thing was that when I was doing reiki on her belly, the fetus seemed to send me messages.  I had the distinct feeling that it was going to be a girl and that she would turn out all right.  Next, I saw visions of how my cousin would do her best to raise her better than she (my cousin) was raised, giving her opportunities for education and all that.  And I had the sense that my cousin didn’t want the baby to turn out like her who was bound by what she didn’t know of the world.  And that when the time comes that the baby grew up and became more advanced than her mother, that her mother would resent it somewhat which she shouldn’t do.  I’m not sure if I’m supposed to tell my cousin all this.  I’ll have to ask.

When asked for feedback, my cousin said that her breathing was improved.  She initially had trouble breathing due to a cold prior to the session.  She could also feel the heat emanating from my palms and that during the times when I placed my hand on her belly, the baby was very restless.  She felt very relaxed and, in her words, felt like she got rid of a lot of toxins after the session.

As for me, I feel loads better and lighter after I do a reiki session.  It feels like I’m still carrying the light.  Despite my ADHD, the hour seems to pass by without me getting bored.  My energy doesn’t seem to get depleted because it’s actually not my energy at work but the Life Force’s.  The only strain I feel is from my own sitting/standing position while holding my palms to the body part.

Anyway, like I said, the birthing of my spiritual business is coming to a head.  I’ve had inspirations for a logo and if my Photoshop skills were more advanced than what they are, I would have come up with something better by now.  I’m still deliberating whether or not I should ask for the help of my artistic cousin with it or not. I do want to get my website up already. Putting it together will be my project work the weekend.


On to the Spiders!

Very strange dream this morning — which is why I actually woke up late even though I was supposed to be early at the office to turn in what I had worked on throughout the night.

I was in the lanai of my grandparents’ old house.  The lanai is open and basically just fenced off from the garden and the pool by grills.  A spider egg sac blew in. I knew what it was but although I am arachnophobic in real life, I wasn’t scared.  More like curious.

So I watched as the spiders hatched forth from that egg sac.  The next thing I knew, little spiders were crawling all over me.  I didn’t feel them, so I didn’t get that creepy-crawly feeling in my dream, but I could see them.  I was just watching them move all over me, and actually pointed them out to someone else who was also in my dream.

Perspective changed in my dream and there was a close up shot of the nearly emptied egg sac.  Inside I could see the “Mother Spider”, and its beady eyes — all eight shiny black eyeballs — were staring straight at me. I went back to the spiders crawling on my arm.  If I remember correctly, I didn’t quite know what to do with them.  My waking instinct was to fling them away or to squish them, but they weren’t all that scary in my dream so I was torn between just letting them be and stomping out what truly terrified me in the third dimension.

Anyway, that’s where the dream ended because I was getting anxious enough and woke up. All in all, I think it was a good dream, bringing positive omen.  Here’s what’s been said about dreaming of spiders or spiders as an animal totem:

If Spider is your Animal Totem:
This insect totem teaches you balance between the past and future, physical and spirit, male and female. She is strength and gentleness combined. She awakens creative sensibilities and reminds you that the past is always interwoven with the future. Tarantulas (and all spiders) are the keepers of the primordial alphabet and can teach you how to write creatively. Her body is shaped like the number 8 and she has 8 legs, which is symbol of infinite possibilities of creation. Her 8 legs represent the 4 winds of change and the four directions of the medicine wheel. Spider’s message is that you are an infinite being who will continue to weave patterns of life and living throughout time. Do not fail to see the eternal plan of creation. Those who weave magic with the written word usually have this totem.

Did you see how significant the number 8 was?  That message was not lost on me.  Eight — the infinity symbol, twin flames.

Here’s another excerpt:

The spider is a remarkable figure of feminine energy and creativity in the spirit animal kingdom. Spiders are characterized by the skilled weaving of intricate webs and patience in awaiting their prey. By affinity with the spider spirit animal, you may have qualities of high receptivity and creativity. Having the spider as a power animal or totem helps you tune into life’s ebbs and flows and ingeniously weave every step of your destiny.


As the weaver of the web, the spider symbolizes the spirit of creation. In several traditions, she’s the totemic symbol of the Mother, strong feminine energy. In Ancient Egypt, the spider was used as a symbol to represent the goddess of the Divine Mother, Neith. In some American Indian tribes, it is considered as the symbol for the creator of the world and by extension is associated with the female creative energy.

So what do I make out of all this?  I think that this spiritual business of mine is on the right path.  It is enabling the practical application/emergence of the Divine Feminine in me, and that was one of my primary missions in this lifetime — to realize the Divine Feminine. And I think this is why I feel so good after doing lightwork in line with this — it’s because it is my authentic self that I’m allowing the world to see. It raises my energy to levels of near bliss and I actually feel myself radiating light and glowing like someone in love. No wonder they said that pursuing mission will bring us closer to our twins.

And I feel the Universe supporting me in this endeavor.  The ideas come quick. The suppliers who can help me manifest it are at arm’s reach.  It’s awesome. So even before it takes off, thank you, thank you, thank you!

I love all of you!



Rising from the Dead


The welts and mysterious lesions began at the beginning of the week. At first, I suspected that they were either a tick or flea or mosquito bite, but when the one close to my ankle swelled to gigantic proportions, I figured a cockroach was more likely.  The thing is, I didn’t know how a cockroach could get onto my bed given that my two very effective watchdogs sleep on the bed with me.

But okay, maybe they were also in deep sleep when the offending cockroach was able to get past their guard. Plausible.

Since then, I’ve doubled remedial measures to prevent it from happening again. Both my dogs don’t have ticks and fleas because of a very strong powder (own formulation, breeders trick) that we use.  I had that washed all over my floors and the powder, spread on all corners.  Even cockroaches get killed from it. And the dogs don’t ingest it either.

Yesterday, in the middle of the day, I started itching near my kneecap and thigh.  I was wearing pixie pants so I didn’t know how I could have been bitten through what I was wearing.  Again, it swelled and created a rash. Took an antihistamine before bed, and also asked my guides to let me know if this was an ascension symptom, and my dream gave me my answer.

I was at the wake of my best friend’s mom who has been dead for several years now.  For some reason, I didn’t peek through the casket to see what she looked like, but other people (like some close friends) did.

We were just hanging around there, like what you’re supposed to do at wakes — keep the dead company. Then I overheard concerns of my BFF that she didn’t think enough Formaldehyde was placed in her mom. FYI – Formaldehyde is the chemical that keeps corpses from rotting and smelling.

Anyway, while we were chatting away at some corner of the room, I notice in the corner of my eye that the corpse starts to stir.  I think that maybe I’m just tired or whatever, but it happens again, and I see my BFF’s mom stretch out her toes.  I call the attention of my BFF to it, and, we both look towards the casket in disbelief, until, Tita (what I call her) sits upright from her casket. They rush over to her and help her up.  It’s not as if she arose a zombie or what.  It was just like she woke up from a long sleep and she was back to normal as I remembered her during her healthiest time.  (She died of colon cancer, in real life)

I was scared and I was not scared.  I mean, I should have been terrorized at the dead even moving, but it was more of nervousness at watching things unfold because it was unfamiliar territory.

All of us soon got swept up in the busy-ness of making arrangements afterwards, and I remember that they told me to wait at this other place. This part is starting to get hazy — can’t remember if my dad told me to wait or what. But I was waiting there with another college friend.  Anyway, that’s when I woke up.

So there’s my answer — they are ascension symptoms related to the rise and rebirth of the divine feminine.

Will write more about this later.  For now, I have to get ready to bring the little furry ones to the zoo.  Later 🙂