Earlier in the day, I thought about Hazel (Starsoul Tarot) and her journey out of the blue. It wasn’t prompted by anything, I just had this feeling that I should go see how she was. When I got home, before I could even shoot her an email or a message, I chanced upon this video she just posted on YouTube: Twin Flames Current Energy & End of My Journey.
She said she was told that she had achieved union frequency and needed to take her story offline for her twin’s sake. Well, that among other things that I also resonated with. She talked about completion energy. Something that one would feel if one has already done all the steps needed to bring one back to a sense of wholeness. As soon as that is completed, you’ll also be resonating at the same vibration that she is.
Once you’re resonating at this vibration, there’s something else that occurs. And some people aren’t going to like me saying this, but this is just what happens; and what happens is you lose the need for that person to come back into your life. So it just goes; it dissolves; it drops away. And after that, what happens, I don’t know because we’ve only just got into this energy. But i’m just letting you know that’s where you get to. And it’s a good feeling. It’s like… liberation.
I’m resonating with this. The need to have my twin in my life isn’t as urgent anymore. It remains a desire; not a need. Disengaged non-attachment is what I think it is. Am I resentful to the Universe for not delivering to me a 3D union on a silver platter? To be honest, a little bit, yes. Like I don’t deserve it when others do. That bit of it still hurts. Okay, a lot of it still hurts when I focus on it. It’s like that gut feeling that I had when I realized I was on a TF journey that regardless of the twists and turns and how challenging the journey was, it might end up like the story “Kaharian ng Araw (Kingdom of the Sun)” and one would end up physically alone while providing beneficial assistance to the rest who are coupled up.
I’m still trying to figure out if I’m blaming my twin for not getting with the program. I’m still weighing how I feel about it. I mean, it’s kind of inane that after all these lifetimes that we’ve had to learn our lessons, the time comes where we actually get to incarnate at the same time here on Earth to help the planet during a crucial time in its existence, and then we don’t get to do that because someone was resistant to doing the work, right? It’s like a mighty waste of a perfectly good opportunity to ascend. On the other hand, there’s the realization that he has much healing to do and then, you know, unconditional love kicks in. I really don’t know. He’s already told me he’s sad and frustrated but what do you expect if you’re not living in authenticity? What else does he want me to do? I’ve been doing as much as I can to help him but there are some things that he has to decide on his own and to work on them. I’m not saying he isn’t. I feel that he is and is just going at a snail’s pace. So there, that’s why we are where we are. And all I can do in the meantime is be patient, and just hope everything works out for me while he is still trying to make his mind up.
All these “graduations” and “end of journeys” are giving separation anxiety, really. First, it was Cirrias. And now, it’s Hazel. The two people whose readings I resonated with the most. Everything else on YouTube seems to be directed towards the Second Wavers, or those who have just discovered that they’re on this journey. And abandonment is a big trigger for me since I’ve had so much of it in real life. So, I don’t know; I don’t know; I don’t know. I’m feeling quite a bit lost without Hazel, especially since her journey is so similar to mine. Ten years and counting. She forecasted union with her twin sometime in September, and I’m guessing from how it’s played out it was an “energetic union” and not a union in the physical. I’m still hoping for her happy ending here in 3D and that they get together soon. Somehow it will be reassuring that such a story is entirely possible to be manifested in this reality.
Okay, I need to breathe now. And meditate.