I got a reading today. Although my situation is a whole lot rocky especially on the domestic front, the cards (and my reader’s guides) are advising me to hold on because the storm will pass and the sun will come out soon.
Some highlights of my reading:
My now ex-friend JJ’s business and love life will reach Tower status if she doesn’t make things right with me.
Apparently, she thinks that I’m causing the havoc in her life right now and is distancing herself from me. It’s the wrong way round. The reason that nothing seems to come to fruition with her is because despite helping her out and showing her kindness and generosity of spirit, she didn’t treat me well. Well, that’s actually a euphemism. Betrayed would be the proper word. Then again, I forgave her (three times now, by my count) and yet, she didn’t make good on those second chances.
Oddly enough, she’s one of the few people who know my divine aspect as dispenser of divine justice. So that’s disappointing. Neither my reader (who also knows her) nor I can give her a heads up too because this is a test that she has to figure out and pass by herself, not because she was coached. I’ll be sad to lose a friend. But again, I’m not a doormat. If she doesn’t make amends, the trend will continue, and she’ll have no one to blame but herself and her foolish pride.
Better to stay under the radar for now where my parents are concerned.
I asked if I could just give them money next month, but the advise was to give some now otherwise, they’ll throw a shit storm by August when other things in my life are going well for me.
When I asked whether or not it was safe to surface, the cards said not yet. It would be better if I didn’t talk to them first until I got myself properly situated with M. That’s assuming, of course, that M would come in time, and I hope he does because too long of a hold out would just make me seem like a universal asshole.
My relationship with my dad will never be repaired. My mom will continue to be user-friendly. They will keep asking for money and emotionally blackmail me into giving it.
The Secret Wedding
So the advice was that when M and I get our act together and decide to get married, that I shouldn’t tell them because they will attempt to sabotage it. I can only tell them when it’s a done deal. I’ll have to explain to M my circumstances and he will understand and will want to take me away from my own private hell here.
I can’t introduce him to my family either because it will sour our beginning. Not even my sisters. My friends, yes, but not my immediate family because all of them have their own malevolent and resentful agenda against me. The advise was to give us time to get used to each other and get settled down, before we let in the barbarian horde into our lives.
I’m going to be moving out first before the wedding so I don’t know how to keep that under wraps. In any case, I don’t think it will be a problem once I announce it, especially if I preface it with the fact that they’ve been telling me to get my own place since they will be selling the house soon, and that here I am, finally complying with their dearest hearts’ wishes.
Kind of a very different scenario from my resort destination wedding that was prophesied at first, but I have to roll with the punches. The “storm” I’m going through was foretold by my other reader in my birthday reading when she said that I’d have to face some challenges when I turn 40. Yeah, this is probably it.
They’ll all be sorry.
I don’t say that in a vengeful sort of way, but I mean, they’ll literally say sorry and try to make amends to me. M will be sorry that he’s strayed the path and delayed so many times, given in to temptation and all that, but from the time he arrives, he will make up for it. That’s also the reason why he hasn’t spoken to me — he’s downing the cocktail of shame with a shot of remorse.
My dad will be sorry and will try to make amends, but only because he wants money, and to that, I say fuck him. My mom will be sorry and try to be congenial but only because of money too. The advise was to give them what they ask just so they get off my back for a while.
The Sun is Coming
Actually, my first and determining spread was really good. I got the Sun card for the final outcome. Right now though, I feel pained and desolate because, until it happens, I really don’t know for sure if I’m looking forward to something, but the cards say that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Even when I read my own cards, that’s what it says.
So right now, my best option is to keep flying low under the radar, keep my cards close to my chest, and hold out for as long as I can, bending without breaking, like a bamboo in the wind.
God help me. My higher self, spiritual team, and the angels, archangels, and the ascended masters too.